i can't shake this little feeling...
i woke up at three this morning. then i woke up at five. i didn't sleep 'til sixthirty, and i was crying before i even got out of bed at nine. this is so fucking hard and i am so compleately heartbroken. my stress level is through the fucking roof. i have two projects i havent even started and have to finish today, i just got my period, and then all this bullshit i-got-cheated-on drama. it all came so fast and i'm so unprepared to deal with it, i don't even know where to begin. how am i supposed to sit at a computer all day and work on two major things for school, deal with cramps that pretty much consume my entire day, worry about what the fuck has happened, and what will i do when the hype about it is over and he really is just gone? this is going to be the hardest day i've had in a while. i keep loosing weight. i havent really eaten anything this week from the stress of the break we were on, to getting back together just to find out that i am better off alone i guess. my body and heart just hurt and i can't make it stop. what do i do when the one person i could talk to anything about and was there every second i needed them is gone? i mean i obviously have my friends to fall back on, but you know what? it's just really, really not that same. i guess just like a lot of things, time is all that will really help.