here i go again on my own, like a drifter i was born to walk alone;
i am sitting on the floor of my sister and mother’s home typing this up while jessica straightens my hair and my sister laughs at my nappy hair. oh yeah. i got nappy hair.
im feeling kinda crappy today, though im putting up the front that im in a good mood. im just feeling horrible because of this boy thing i got going on. he’s coming down this weekend but he isnt sure if hes going to actually see me. which makes me freaking mad. cause i cant have feelings for anyone else. ive tried, trust me i have. there’s just nothing there. and it sucks for me, because he’s all for being with other people and im not. i just wish there was something i could to, but there isnt.
i just wish... but wishing gets you nowhere. so i just have to face it and try my best to get over it. although i know that will never happen..
i just have to stick this out. because if i dont, i will never, ever find anyone else that makes me feel that way. so feel for me friends. this is gonna be a long journey.