I'm broken
Wow
I dont know what happened. My life has just been turned upsided down.
The 1st My Granddaddy died. Justin was in my office studying when my mom called and told me. I was glad he was there.
The 5th Justin was gone and Darcey calls and tells me that don was arrested for kidnapping and statatory rape.
the week of the 8thish. one of my fav students was calling me all hours of the night suicidal.
The 16th My sister got married and didnt want me to be there.
The 18th Justin told me he doesnt see himself marrying me anymore so he doesnt see the point of us dating anymore.
The 23 A boy from church was killed in Kasilof. i went frolfing and saw Justin for the first time. I vomited on hole 13 (even after not eating anything for the entire week) and felt like a moron.
I wish I hadnt beleived him when he told me he was going to marry me. I trusted him. I told him that.
I dont understand. He told me he has no tangible reasons. He understands that I am confused and frusterated since he had nothing to offer me as to why he said we never faught or argued. itd be easier if he or i cheated but there was nothing. he said we were treading water. he said we were too different--not true. he said we communicated differnt--everyone on earth does. everyone that i tell is so surprised. no one can beleive it.
He built me up and built me up. talking about marrage and stick with me baby. and when we are married. and when we are in china. my roles as his wife in china. then he dropped me off a cliff with little explination.
I was in a meeting with scott and curtis. my 2 imediate bosses. I was so distracted my eyes would tear up then go away then tear up then go away. Scott kept staring at me because he knows me and knows when I am trying to be strong. I was staring off getting angry and I looked over and founbd him looking at me and he interupted curtis and said he knows I am not present. and its ok. that Im a hard worker and that i can take the day off if i want. i just burst into tears. and he came over and gave me a hug. Scott didnt know what was wrong but he knows about my family and it makes him angry how my sister is to me and how my family is. I went to the prayer chapel and cried and cried and cried.
The next day I went in and told scott that justin broke up with me. he was so surprised. He was angry sincerely angry. he knows justin and obviously me and he could not beleive it. I just sat there and cried. he just said that justin doesnt deserve me. later krista-who is scotts wife told me that she rarely see scott mad but she said he was angry about justin breaking up with me. he knows how strong justin was about marrying me. Krista said he was angry at firs then he decided that i dont deserve that. and that justin doesnt deserve me.
I dont know what happened. My life has just been turned upsided down.
The 1st My Granddaddy died. Justin was in my office studying when my mom called and told me. I was glad he was there.
The 5th Justin was gone and Darcey calls and tells me that don was arrested for kidnapping and statatory rape.
the week of the 8thish. one of my fav students was calling me all hours of the night suicidal.
The 16th My sister got married and didnt want me to be there.
The 18th Justin told me he doesnt see himself marrying me anymore so he doesnt see the point of us dating anymore.
The 23 A boy from church was killed in Kasilof. i went frolfing and saw Justin for the first time. I vomited on hole 13 (even after not eating anything for the entire week) and felt like a moron.
I wish I hadnt beleived him when he told me he was going to marry me. I trusted him. I told him that.
I dont understand. He told me he has no tangible reasons. He understands that I am confused and frusterated since he had nothing to offer me as to why he said we never faught or argued. itd be easier if he or i cheated but there was nothing. he said we were treading water. he said we were too different--not true. he said we communicated differnt--everyone on earth does. everyone that i tell is so surprised. no one can beleive it.
He built me up and built me up. talking about marrage and stick with me baby. and when we are married. and when we are in china. my roles as his wife in china. then he dropped me off a cliff with little explination.
I was in a meeting with scott and curtis. my 2 imediate bosses. I was so distracted my eyes would tear up then go away then tear up then go away. Scott kept staring at me because he knows me and knows when I am trying to be strong. I was staring off getting angry and I looked over and founbd him looking at me and he interupted curtis and said he knows I am not present. and its ok. that Im a hard worker and that i can take the day off if i want. i just burst into tears. and he came over and gave me a hug. Scott didnt know what was wrong but he knows about my family and it makes him angry how my sister is to me and how my family is. I went to the prayer chapel and cried and cried and cried.
The next day I went in and told scott that justin broke up with me. he was so surprised. He was angry sincerely angry. he knows justin and obviously me and he could not beleive it. I just sat there and cried. he just said that justin doesnt deserve me. later krista-who is scotts wife told me that she rarely see scott mad but she said he was angry about justin breaking up with me. he knows how strong justin was about marrying me. Krista said he was angry at firs then he decided that i dont deserve that. and that justin doesnt deserve me.