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sometimes you just get a kick in the ass to make you realize that even if you didn't think you did you took things for granted. in the past 12 months i have experienced 2 thus far....the first of which was my grandma which will be 8 months on the 6th of March and the second happened yesterday. i don't even know what to type. my mind is racing a million miles a minute and none of them are coherent or understandable. my eyes when they can't cry feel like they will burst with tears any minute. i went driving last night after the fact and with no where to go you just think and think for hours. that sucks the worst...thinking of you laying with someone else....it hurts to think of that! the only thing i could do is pray to God that you would realize how important I am and that this situation is worth working at. the only think i can look forward to is the vacation...63 days if anyone cares. i think i am going to drive again...hopefully end at my grandma's grave so i can talk to her. this is some of the time i miss her the most....she always knew what to say but in this case the only thing I wish is that she would have been able to meet you. the fact i know she would have loved you...yep thats hard too.
some things i had hoped would make me feel better...
So it's not gonna be easy.
It's gonna be really hard.
We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you.
I want all of you
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But in spite their differences, they had one important thing in common, they were crazy about each other.
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No, we said some things we didn't mean but its not over
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