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I had my first dominate/submissive sexual experience tonight. I am covered in bruises such as this one, and I am deeply pleased by them. The pain was something I have never experienced, it was so raw and powerful that it actually became pleasurable. He was unbearably cruel in one instant and discussing film cameras with me the next, and the strangest thing was him walking me to my car afterward. I told chad and he was visibly upset, for what reason I couldn't be sure since he hardly seems to like me at all. Not that it matters now, I've chased another one away. The more manic I become, the easier it is to frighten them off.