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Yeah well, I am updating to let yall know i'm still alive..anyways, yeah i'm still grounded, but ill try to get online occasionally to update..i miss this thing. ooh i got my new camera phone on friday and it's awesome..ive been taking pics like crazy. alex has been coming over here and hanging out too, even though i'm supposed to be grounded. it's still kind of awkward having him around because i know i still like him, but i just dont wanna say anything because he might not like me back and then it would be embarrassing. but i think alex totally wants me back. he's been acting strange lately.
Here's Why:
Well, this past week I've talked to alex, but I haven't really like had a long conversation with him. Basically I just said hello to him and maybe said one thing or two while we were passing in the halls, and I haven't made an effort to talk to him. This is driving him crazy..He like doesn't know how to handle this whole thing, now that I'm not begging him to talk to me, and I act like he's just another one of my friends or something. He also has been asking me a lot if I like anyone right now..And yeah, I like Nick and Alex and Ivan's okay..but I didn't tell Alex that. I was like "Oh, I dunno..I'm not sure" and that drove him crazy too.
Oh yeah, I forgot to say that to other day I was asking Alex a question when Couter walks up and imitates a fisherman and his fishing pole..What he was trying to say was that I was "reeling" alex in..(long story)
Well, Alex saw him and was like "What's that?" And I was just like "A fishing pole..you know reeling..?" and then he figured out what Couter was trying to say. And then I asked Alex if I WAS reeling him in and he said " Yeah you are, and it's making me mad."
I love having total control over this. In the past, I was a pathetic little sap who hung all over Alex and worshipped the ground he walked on. I would call him like 10 times a day just to hear his voice, and I would always invite him over to my house and to movies, and I would desperately try to get his attention by holding his hand or petting his hair. I would go crazy if I didn't talk to Alex at school at least 5 times. Now it's like, I walk up and down the halls and if I see him, I smile or say hello, but I don't really stop to have a lengthy conversation with him. I don't call him 10 times a day, in fact I rarely call him unless I need to ask him something (which isnt that often). I don't get jealous if I see him talking to other girls, I'm just like "Whatever." It seems like I've gotten over him, but I haven't. It's just I'm tired of waiting around for him and being there at all times. I wanted him to see that I'm not always going to be sitting around waiting for a phone call that isn't going to come.
The funny thing is that Alex gets uber jealous if he sees me talking to another guy. For example: One day last week, I was talking to Nick RIGHT after 2nd block. And it just so happens that Alex has to pass my locker to get to his at the end of the opposite hall. Well, Nick stopped by my locker and I was talking to him..and yeah, we were flirting. Nick was standing really close, and I was holding onto his bicep (yummy). Well, Alex comes up the stairs and I could tell he was sooooo jealous. So like later that day or night or the next day or something, Alex tries talking to me about it. He's like "Yeah, I saw you all over Nick" and I'm like "you jealous or something?" and he told me he was. And I sort of feel guilty and bad for being mean to him, but then again he's done the same thing to me several times, and he never once thought about if it was going to hurt me. So why should I care?
well, that was a long update. i think imma go to bed..ill update like this weekend, if not sooner.
<333's forever
Here's Why:
Well, this past week I've talked to alex, but I haven't really like had a long conversation with him. Basically I just said hello to him and maybe said one thing or two while we were passing in the halls, and I haven't made an effort to talk to him. This is driving him crazy..He like doesn't know how to handle this whole thing, now that I'm not begging him to talk to me, and I act like he's just another one of my friends or something. He also has been asking me a lot if I like anyone right now..And yeah, I like Nick and Alex and Ivan's okay..but I didn't tell Alex that. I was like "Oh, I dunno..I'm not sure" and that drove him crazy too.
Oh yeah, I forgot to say that to other day I was asking Alex a question when Couter walks up and imitates a fisherman and his fishing pole..What he was trying to say was that I was "reeling" alex in..(long story)
Well, Alex saw him and was like "What's that?" And I was just like "A fishing pole..you know reeling..?" and then he figured out what Couter was trying to say. And then I asked Alex if I WAS reeling him in and he said " Yeah you are, and it's making me mad."
I love having total control over this. In the past, I was a pathetic little sap who hung all over Alex and worshipped the ground he walked on. I would call him like 10 times a day just to hear his voice, and I would always invite him over to my house and to movies, and I would desperately try to get his attention by holding his hand or petting his hair. I would go crazy if I didn't talk to Alex at school at least 5 times. Now it's like, I walk up and down the halls and if I see him, I smile or say hello, but I don't really stop to have a lengthy conversation with him. I don't call him 10 times a day, in fact I rarely call him unless I need to ask him something (which isnt that often). I don't get jealous if I see him talking to other girls, I'm just like "Whatever." It seems like I've gotten over him, but I haven't. It's just I'm tired of waiting around for him and being there at all times. I wanted him to see that I'm not always going to be sitting around waiting for a phone call that isn't going to come.
The funny thing is that Alex gets uber jealous if he sees me talking to another guy. For example: One day last week, I was talking to Nick RIGHT after 2nd block. And it just so happens that Alex has to pass my locker to get to his at the end of the opposite hall. Well, Nick stopped by my locker and I was talking to him..and yeah, we were flirting. Nick was standing really close, and I was holding onto his bicep (yummy). Well, Alex comes up the stairs and I could tell he was sooooo jealous. So like later that day or night or the next day or something, Alex tries talking to me about it. He's like "Yeah, I saw you all over Nick" and I'm like "you jealous or something?" and he told me he was. And I sort of feel guilty and bad for being mean to him, but then again he's done the same thing to me several times, and he never once thought about if it was going to hurt me. So why should I care?
well, that was a long update. i think imma go to bed..ill update like this weekend, if not sooner.
<333's forever