FOR YESTERDAY
Because there was chocolate chips cookies, alcohol, & a phone call conspiring that I not post. Ironically, it was a call from my best friend for whom the following was written in 2006, when we were still together. I changed quite a bit, cleaned it up some, so it was like writing from scratch, but less painful.
Three months where we have not
My tongue slides around your name
tea, chips, chocolate;
those my tongue will yield to,
names - others - letters, times,
books, poems, food - these,
these, my tongue will accept,
will work with.
but not you.
my brain slips past your thought.
a white fill in the coils of my
grey slime donated to your image.
your words voice actions that
peculiar snapshot of you I
keep alive to eat at my heart,
my love.
my eyes swing past your form
Form! delightful form
body which was in me, mine,
wrapped around, through me
under and over and around.
now I cannot look at you:
you've filled me so long,
how do I empty myself of you,
now?
where your form has filled
my eyes my hands my core;
your name, my ears and tongue
your thought, my thoughts.
I am
saturated.
I can live only if I leave
tongue, brain, eyes,
thoughts
behind.
for J
Three months where we have not
My tongue slides around your name
tea, chips, chocolate;
those my tongue will yield to,
names - others - letters, times,
books, poems, food - these,
these, my tongue will accept,
will work with.
but not you.
my brain slips past your thought.
a white fill in the coils of my
grey slime donated to your image.
your words voice actions that
peculiar snapshot of you I
keep alive to eat at my heart,
my love.
my eyes swing past your form
Form! delightful form
body which was in me, mine,
wrapped around, through me
under and over and around.
now I cannot look at you:
you've filled me so long,
how do I empty myself of you,
now?
where your form has filled
my eyes my hands my core;
your name, my ears and tongue
your thought, my thoughts.
I am
saturated.
I can live only if I leave
tongue, brain, eyes,
thoughts
behind.
for J