im starting to fashion an idea in my head..
even though she is in an intolerable amount of pain she has so many wonderful memories of their love..the way his warm breath against her neck made her weak in the knees and how her heart raced as they shared their first kiss..or the plethora of emotions she felt the first time they made love..it was "almost like they were too intense for eachother"despite all of the horrid things he says..the stabbing words..the way he turns everything that he once loved about her into the epitimy of all that he now despises...i yearn for it all..i want more than anything for someone to love me as much as he loved her..even if in the end it all turns to a bitter game played by both sides..love me with all of you and then "hate" me with even more...it had to have been beautiful enough for u to write such sweet words and touch her the way that u did..and even now ..the consumption of time spent on hating her proves it all to be true..u shared something..and i want that..i need that...i need to find my "epic"...ahh..there i go again...feeding myself false hopes and doing what i do best..dreaming.