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I'm on Live Journal! Whoa Buddy! It feels good to be back. It's like I'm taking a vacation to another time. I think the best part was that I remembered my username and password on the first try. yes!
Anna and I were talking about Live Journal tonight at dinner so it only seems appropriate that I write about it. And so I got on here, and before I posted anything I went and read Anna's journal. I felt the need to write this massive long letter. I meant it to be an apologize and explanation... But I'm sure it came out as either of those. I was on the computer at the EKU library (seeing as how I don't have a computer myself) and I was on a time crunch because I was going to get kicked out of the building at 1 am. So I just started rambling. I didn't even get to spell check it :( ew. She's going to think I'm stupid. There was once upon a time when I didn't care about proper punctuation or spelling. It's not my strong point, but heck I don't write on the computer like I used to. Grammar, well that's another topic I'm not too concerned with.
Anyway, so I wrote this letter/comment on her journal. I when I was finish, I immediately felt a twinge of happiness. Maybe a little bit of weight lifted off my shoulder. I know that a comment on LJ is not nearly significant of an apology for being a bad friend these past 6 months, but it was an eye opening experience and it's a start. Maybe I need to look into things and start sincerely apologizing to the people that matter more. I guess I believe in karma too. So maybe if I start doing more of these good deeds life will start to get better. Because it sure al hell isn't good right now.
And whenever I closed out of LJ in the library I clicked over to the tab I had Facebook open on and Russ had just messaged me. (!!!!!! :) :) :) !!!!!!) which made me giddy and happy inside. I'm always way more into boys than they are to me. I get veryvery excited when any guy messages me. But it was at like 12:58 and I had to leave. So I walk out to my car and I'm thinking about how "whoa, yea kharma... as soon as i start apologizing all of a sudden this boy i've been crushing on talks to me on FB...humm....this is good" And I also started thinking about how after writing that message I felt good.. just because I was writing. I remembered how I used to use LJ as a means of sorting out my life. When I wrote down what was happening things just seems clearer, better, and more manageable. I liked it. And decided that I would start writing again, for sure! So now, I'm driving around campus looking for a spot thinking about how it's stupid for me to even check the parking lot right next to my building because it's going to be full... And what do you know.. THERES A SPOT OPEN! OMFG. Hell... maybe life is getting better!?
But then I came into the lobby of Todd Hall and try to get back on facebook to see if he's still online, and he's not :( Sad Story. I was too quick to assume. I guess I gota go do some more good deeds.
EW. My boss/teacher (it's weird) Marc Whitt just emailed me telling me to call him before noon tomorrow. This does not sound good at all.
Which brings me to now. Well it's almost 2 am. I'm always up this late. I hate it. I need to wake up at like 7 am and try to get some boxes from Walmart for a RLC project. it's a big FML.
I'm lonely. I wish people would message me on facebook or text me right now. I really just want someone I can text all day every day when I'm bored.
I applied to be on some game shows today. We were watching GSN in the chapter room today. Claire, Kayla, Sharla and myself were all playing along. It was good times.
Maybe I'll go to bed now. I didn't accomplish many of the things that I should have today.