This is to you, the one person who i never stoped loveing
Mallory- Hey, well, i dont know how long it's going to take me to write this to you or anything. I will admit that it was nice being able to see you at the mall thursday, but, i can't be around you anymore. I care so much for you and all i really ever wanted was you. But i lost it. Im glad your happy and moved on and everything, but there is still a part that wishes that i could be apart of that. You say you know me well, but if you knew me so well than why do you persist on asking me questions you already know the answers to? Why dont you just leave me alone so that i can finally move on and everything and so that i can finally get over you? I mean, if your happy and you dont need me in your life than why does it matter if i dont want you in mine? Why is it that its okay for you to move on but not okay for me? I dont know anymore mallory. You sat on the phone and tryed to tell me that i needed you, maybe i do but im not going to allow myself to need something thats never going to do anything more than cause me pain. Im still stuck, sitting here, wishing that you still cared, i cant even fricken go one day without thinking about you and it sucks and it hurts alot. I wish this was easier done than said but its not. Im sure theres going to be alot of pain involved but its nothing comparred to what i have been feeling within the past like 9 mths. I do miss you alot, and i do miss being yours. things have changed now and i have accepted that also. I still cant except that i let you go. I have only one regret in my life and that is loseing you. I have loved you for more than a year now. I never relizied how much you ment to me and how much you still. but this is my goodbye for a while probably. its time for me to move on and just forget about everything that me and you had i dont want ot cry anymore becasue to tell you the truth you have no idea how hard this is going to be on me and you have no idea how much pain i have went through becasue all i did was love you so goodbye and i am serousily glad that your happy
~nicole~