Just for the record...
My birthday is in a week. So Be ready to PPPARRRTTAAAYY!! I can't discided between skipping band and going out of lunch OR going out for din din. Suggestions? And please understand that a girl in a witch costume just walked threw the computer lab for now apperent reason.......... weeeird. Anyway. Surprisingly, i'm not super excited for my birthday. I'm gettin old. Blah. And all I really want is a boy. I know I say that a lot, but it's true. lately it seems like i'm just a big oofe. Cause even my friends make disheartin comments (probably not too their knowledge... but still) like "your anthony... you can't be cute" or "your too gay to function" or "you are just big and akward"... and its like "is that all I am too people? is this why I don't have a boyfriend?" but on the other hand it's like "do I want a boyfriend that woudl only want me cause i'm hot?". poop. It seems like all my really good friends are getting someone special. And i want that. Cause I really haven't had someone I get up everyday day to see since... well since like sophmore year with you-know-who (and if you don't, too bad). And thats what I want more than anything. Cause I've been used and disrespected so much thats that what I'm used to in a relastionship... and I can't do that. I'm quiting smoking... and of couse by 'smoking' i mean 'relastionships that aren't good for me' but that means I good guy. I need ryan. Someone smake him to his senses please.
poop.
poop.