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In 2008 I've --
[x] stayed single
[x] made out in a car
[] kissed in the snow
[] kissed in the rain
[x] was in love with a fool
[x] had my heart broken
[x] had a stalker
[x] broke someone else's heart
[x] kind of lost a friend
[x] had a good relationship with someone
[] questioned my sexual orientation
[] came out of the closet
[] got pregnant
[] had an abortion
[] thought you were pregnant
[] got married
[] had a divorce
[] kissed someone of the same sex
[x] met someone that I will never forget
[] did something I regret
[x] lost faith in love
[] regained faith in love
[] kissed under mistletoe
[] got a promotion
[] got a pay raise
[] changed jobs
[] quit my job
[] dated a co-worker
[] dated my boss
[] dated my boss's son/ daughter
[] got fired from my job
[] got straight A's
[] met a teacher who I became friends with
[] met a teacher who I really hate
[x] found the subject I love
[] failed a class
[x] cut class
[] skipped school
[x] did something I was proud of
[x] discovered a new talent
[x] proved myself
[x] embarrassed myself in front of the class.
[] fell in love with a teacher
[x] was involved in something that I will never forget
[x] painted/drew a picture
[] wrote a poem/song
[x] listened to music I couldn't stand
[x] double dipped
[] skinny dipped
[x] had a sleepover
[] went to a camp
[] threw a surprise party
[x] laughed till I cried
[x] laughed till I peed my pants
[x] flirted shamelessly
[] visited a foreign country
[x] visited another state
[] cooked a disastrous meal
[x] lost something/someone important to me
[x] got a gift I love
[xxx] realized something new about myself
[] highlighted/dyed my hair
[] came close to losing my life
[] someone close to me died
[x] went to a wild party
[x] drank alcohol
[x] got drunk
[] got arrested
[x] read a great book
[x] saw a great movie
[] saw a movie so scary that it made me cry
[] saw a band live or concert
[x] did something that I wanted to tell everyone
[x] experienced something new
[x] made new friends
[x] found out who your real friends are
[x] lied to your parents
[] snuck out
[] got in trouble with police
[x] had the time of your life
[x] danced
[x] fell out of love
[x] had a crush on someone
[] changed your sexual preference
[x] swam in a pool
[] made a snowman
[] went snowboarding
[] went sledding
[x] slept in past 2 pm
[] got wasted in a public place
[] got wasted in Mexico
[x] told someone you like them as more than a friend
[] gone on vacation
[] gone on vacation with a friend
[] gone to a wedding
[] played strip poker
[x] danced in the rain (does playing tag in the rain count?)
[] got in a car accident
[] seen someone get in a car accident
[] got in a fist fight
[x] laughed until you couldn't breathe
[xxxxx] had an amazing year
[x] missed someone
[] got hit by car
[x] went to the hospital
[] got a new pet
[x] enjoyed this year overall (bittersweet, as every year is and should be)
It just hit me today that I began this year literally jumping into auditions for college. Syracuse auditions were January 4th. Beyond the realm of theater and acting, other dimensions and emotions of this year were excitement, incredulous-ness (?), disappointment, giddiness, silliness, anxiety, nausea (literal nausea and pretentious-cum-existential nausea), stress, curiosity, isolation and the consequential immersion into being a human being again, after seven years of numb dormancy. I've left the overcritical people behind me. I'm in Oakland again but I've finally left the soul of Oakland, it's dead and buried somewhere in my backyard. Even though my asthma is making it a bitch to physically breathe, emotionally and mentally I'm breathing again. I'm no longer thinking that my life will start tomorrow, a week from now, a year from now. It's here and I'm not a victim. It's a struggle but it's an absurd struggle, because I'm secretly Albert Camus...okay, I'm done now. I've learned so much this year and even though I'm still hesitant and bothered by some things and some people, I look back and see the change and I'm happy. Not a stupid happiness over false perfection, but a bittersweet, realistic happiness over imperfection.
Aside from the desire to lose weight, in 2009 my resolution is to live a life fulfilled.