Autostraddle Q&A

Dec 17, 2010 09:40

How many times has your heart been broken? How many times have you put it back together again? I don’t think I can.

once a person broke my heart
once a situation broke my heart, and hers too

i have put it back together 2x.

there’s cracks in it. there’s entire chunks missing, and anyone who dares to scrape their toe against those gulfs will find themselves falling into it quicker than quicksand.

and there’s parts that don’t work like they used to.

but that’s all about behavior, really, not about love. heartbreak won’t destroy your capacity to fall in love again. you’ll just be different, maybe a bit worse for wear but that’s growing up.

there’s that jewel lyric, hearts are broken every day- and that’s not meant to diminish the enormity of our individual specific heartbreaks including most importantly YOURS, dear reader, because i’ve been there and it was, literally, disabling. i get that.

but heartbreak is a part of life, unfortunately hearts are broken every day, and 1 out of every 10 people on the train are hurting too. but you don’t care about those people, it doesn’t make you feel any better at all. because that’s how singularly self-composed and self-involved heartbreak is, that’s why it’s so especially terrible. but 1 out of every 10 people are hurting and all of them will be ok because the other 9 are. we take turns. you will love again.

i’m rusty. we get rusty. but i learned a lot and grew and changed. And eventually even the bitterest root gnawing at the underside of my stupidest muscular organ will wilt and die.

and life can surprise you sometimes. i mean, it will.

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