Emotional Ups And Downs
I woke up this morning in a funk. It was very difficult to get out of bed...very very difficult. Just had a lot of worries on my mind, things here and there. Most of the things that were pressing on my mind, I have no control over. But the problem is that I want to be in control. I want to be able to make the situation favorable to me. And, of course, when one is in that situation, all those little insecurities start rearing their ugly heads. It wasn't a good morning.
But I will say that, despite all my dark thoughts, I got up this morning. Drove myself to church...nearly in tears along the way...and ended up hearing what I needed to hear:
God knows where you are/God knows your situation; because of this, focus on Him. The assumption in this phrase is that God is at work even when you don't think He's listening/watching. The situation has already been resolved, and thus, is a non-issue. It's a matter of trust and faith from this point on.
That being said, I'm still in the process of getting out of the funk that I put myself into. I'm still in the midst of releasing myself from the responsibility/desire of control. I am an eternal work in progress.
In other news, it's been five years since Katrina. I'm not sure that I want to relive those memories again, but I do know that I will never forget. The beauty that came out of the storm, but also the ugly, the hate, the racism (or "classism" as some claimed it was) that showed itself through this tragedy. I won't forget. I can't...it's still going on. It is present.
I will also never forget being happy to know that all of my students were safe after *we* had to evacuate as well.
My little sis is off to college, and on her move-in day, I couldn't help but feel a bit "empty." When I go home, she won't be there anymore. Luckily, she won't be far away. I'm happy for her, but I miss her already. ::pout::
I think that is all...
But I will say that, despite all my dark thoughts, I got up this morning. Drove myself to church...nearly in tears along the way...and ended up hearing what I needed to hear:
God knows where you are/God knows your situation; because of this, focus on Him. The assumption in this phrase is that God is at work even when you don't think He's listening/watching. The situation has already been resolved, and thus, is a non-issue. It's a matter of trust and faith from this point on.
That being said, I'm still in the process of getting out of the funk that I put myself into. I'm still in the midst of releasing myself from the responsibility/desire of control. I am an eternal work in progress.
In other news, it's been five years since Katrina. I'm not sure that I want to relive those memories again, but I do know that I will never forget. The beauty that came out of the storm, but also the ugly, the hate, the racism (or "classism" as some claimed it was) that showed itself through this tragedy. I won't forget. I can't...it's still going on. It is present.
I will also never forget being happy to know that all of my students were safe after *we* had to evacuate as well.
My little sis is off to college, and on her move-in day, I couldn't help but feel a bit "empty." When I go home, she won't be there anymore. Luckily, she won't be far away. I'm happy for her, but I miss her already. ::pout::
I think that is all...