It sux. I knew it was gonna happen tho but I guess I wasnt prepared.
So i have this secret.
Its a secret that other people have had.
Ive study close to what happens to these people when there secret is exposed.
They lose there friends.
Its like people think that there not the same person anymore or that they are uncappable to do what they used to so.
Like all of a sudden you notice the calls stop.
That people no longer wanna just chill and do what they used to do.
Its like im an alien.
Im not longer invited to events.
It sux.
I bring this up cuz of last nite.
Me and matt were chilling watching tv.
I get a call from an old friend who wants to chill for like the first time in 2 weeks.
So I get all excited and upstair to look decent and by the time i get down their there getting ready to leave and NOT hang out and chill with someone i guess is more important or maybe can do the things with them that "I can no longer do".
I played it off like it was cool but to be honest i was really sad about it.
We havent hung out in at least 2 weeks and obviously i was looking forward to it.
But i got all pretty to sit back on the couch like ive been doing for a week or so now.
Fun.
I mean hello anyone can see that im not changed yet and im still Jaleesa, the same one i was before i told all.
Oh well.
I guess now im prepared.
Anyways so the other day me and matt got a call from the friend in jail.
He sounds great!.
Sounds like his OLD self.
Not getting out for at least another month or so.
But hes doing awesome.
I was supposed to go to 313 friday but didnt go and apparently i was greatly missed by new friends.
That makes me feel good.
At least i have a few people that still care and wanna hang out and realize that im NOT disabled to chill.
So me and matt are doing absolutely awesome right now.
Im so happy cuz we like rekindled our flame.
Im excited to see him again and Im getting butterflys again.
Its beautiful.
He giving me $100 to find him a nice outfit for Easter Sunday.
Im so excited.
It will be like a makeover!!!!
So I guess besides the friend stuff, Im pretty content with things.
<3
Ps. LOVES THE BIG 1 !!!
Its a secret that other people have had.
Ive study close to what happens to these people when there secret is exposed.
They lose there friends.
Its like people think that there not the same person anymore or that they are uncappable to do what they used to so.
Like all of a sudden you notice the calls stop.
That people no longer wanna just chill and do what they used to do.
Its like im an alien.
Im not longer invited to events.
It sux.
I bring this up cuz of last nite.
Me and matt were chilling watching tv.
I get a call from an old friend who wants to chill for like the first time in 2 weeks.
So I get all excited and upstair to look decent and by the time i get down their there getting ready to leave and NOT hang out and chill with someone i guess is more important or maybe can do the things with them that "I can no longer do".
I played it off like it was cool but to be honest i was really sad about it.
We havent hung out in at least 2 weeks and obviously i was looking forward to it.
But i got all pretty to sit back on the couch like ive been doing for a week or so now.
Fun.
I mean hello anyone can see that im not changed yet and im still Jaleesa, the same one i was before i told all.
Oh well.
I guess now im prepared.
Anyways so the other day me and matt got a call from the friend in jail.
He sounds great!.
Sounds like his OLD self.
Not getting out for at least another month or so.
But hes doing awesome.
I was supposed to go to 313 friday but didnt go and apparently i was greatly missed by new friends.
That makes me feel good.
At least i have a few people that still care and wanna hang out and realize that im NOT disabled to chill.
So me and matt are doing absolutely awesome right now.
Im so happy cuz we like rekindled our flame.
Im excited to see him again and Im getting butterflys again.
Its beautiful.
He giving me $100 to find him a nice outfit for Easter Sunday.
Im so excited.
It will be like a makeover!!!!
So I guess besides the friend stuff, Im pretty content with things.
<3
Ps. LOVES THE BIG 1 !!!