i will kill you
aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i am on in brink of insanity. Vance seriously needs to bounce the fuck out of my house. i hate him. i hate how things are when hes atound. i hate how anna acts when hes here. i hate him and this situation. hes like some helacious combination of lenny from of mice and men and a bull in a china shop. he comes into our house. scratch that; my house and breaks things, stains things, fucks things up pretty much. and anna gets mad about it but only five min later to be over it and then spend more time with him. she says hes retarded and crazy with a kind of rolls eyes attitude. i miss my mom i miss my family and were not together when hes around. which is ironic in that his whole thing is yeah lets go have a cookout in the back yard in my fucking joke of a fire ring deal. bottom line is my mother, my (at least she was 4 months ago) best friend, would rather spend all of her time with a fucking crazy retard devoid of class or even an understanding of what is acceptable in society. Ex1: passing out in the middle of a nice dinner alone with mom bc you drink too much and cant handle your alcohol... NOT OK. Ex2: dropping moms phone in your wine glass so it wont work and i have no way of contacting her.. ALSO NOT OK.
hmm does anyone else see a pattern here? i dont even want to be home anymore and i never am. i pretty much spend all my time at brandons house. which is better than mine. this however has resulted in the begging signs of a smoking habit. bc i had a bad week a few weeks ago and i smoked and then with this whole vance fiasco its just continued and, being there, cigarettes are readily available. so thats no bueno. oh well whatever. nothing i can do about it. so w/e.
hmm does anyone else see a pattern here? i dont even want to be home anymore and i never am. i pretty much spend all my time at brandons house. which is better than mine. this however has resulted in the begging signs of a smoking habit. bc i had a bad week a few weeks ago and i smoked and then with this whole vance fiasco its just continued and, being there, cigarettes are readily available. so thats no bueno. oh well whatever. nothing i can do about it. so w/e.