what i say may disgust you.

[lovelydeception]

i'm in one of those moods that i would make out with anyone just to feel better about myself.
i'm really needy and you're not there for me enough
i tell you its okay, but its really not
its only okay because you're happy
im happy sometimes. the times when i feel like you're my boyfriend and not just some boy i can have sex with every other day
yeah i'm happier now than i was before and its probably because of you
but is that what i should be striving for? is that what i should be content with?
i guess i should just shut up and appreciate what i have.
sometimes i just want to be held and kissed
and i want to be you're friend not just your girlfriend
you'd be suprised what i'd enjoy
and i hate when you leave
you'll stay for a couple more minutes just because you pity my face

i want to be able to say i'm in love with my life