Just thinking...
Dear Friends,
Do you ever find yourself thinking back over the last year of your life and contemplating it all? I have to admit that is one of my favorite things to do, especially at special ocassions like birthdays and such. But today is not my birthday or even close to my birthday, today(and many days prior to today) I just find myself unable to tear my thoughts away from the past. It's so sad because thinking about the past is never going to bring it back, it will only make me long for it more. So why continue to dwell on things that only make me want something I'll never have? Because that's just the way I am, that's why.
It's so strange to look back at the progression of things and see how two years ago I desired what I had one year ago, only at that time I had no idea that I would have it a year later. And now I want what I had a year ago, only a year ago I could never have foreseen it ending the way it has.
And as long I'm looking back at all the crazy, unexpected things that once brought me joy but have now ended, I can'r help but look back at the things that have popped up even just in the last few months that will undoubtedly change my life forever. Why do these things happen? I am not questioning God in any way because I know that in a little while I will be able to look back at all of this and see His master plan, it just isn't clear right now. I still can't help but marvle at how He chooses to put His plan into action. His ways are so unlike mine, it's hard for me to understand. And all of this leads me to wishing I could back in time a year and just stay there, but then where would my growth be? No, God knows better for me and that is why I can't live in the past or hide from the future Becuase, all heartbreaks considered, God has something waiting for me in the future that is so much better than what He gave me a year ago, and that's why living in the past just won't do.
The Lord gives and the Lord takes away, isn't that how it goes? Who am I to complain, I have no right.
I have no idea what my family and I are in for right now, I just know that life changing things are happening and I doubt that much will be the same when it is all said and done. To anyone who may happen to read this, please be praying.
Here's to tomorrow,
Hannah Leigh.
Do you ever find yourself thinking back over the last year of your life and contemplating it all? I have to admit that is one of my favorite things to do, especially at special ocassions like birthdays and such. But today is not my birthday or even close to my birthday, today(and many days prior to today) I just find myself unable to tear my thoughts away from the past. It's so sad because thinking about the past is never going to bring it back, it will only make me long for it more. So why continue to dwell on things that only make me want something I'll never have? Because that's just the way I am, that's why.
It's so strange to look back at the progression of things and see how two years ago I desired what I had one year ago, only at that time I had no idea that I would have it a year later. And now I want what I had a year ago, only a year ago I could never have foreseen it ending the way it has.
And as long I'm looking back at all the crazy, unexpected things that once brought me joy but have now ended, I can'r help but look back at the things that have popped up even just in the last few months that will undoubtedly change my life forever. Why do these things happen? I am not questioning God in any way because I know that in a little while I will be able to look back at all of this and see His master plan, it just isn't clear right now. I still can't help but marvle at how He chooses to put His plan into action. His ways are so unlike mine, it's hard for me to understand. And all of this leads me to wishing I could back in time a year and just stay there, but then where would my growth be? No, God knows better for me and that is why I can't live in the past or hide from the future Becuase, all heartbreaks considered, God has something waiting for me in the future that is so much better than what He gave me a year ago, and that's why living in the past just won't do.
The Lord gives and the Lord takes away, isn't that how it goes? Who am I to complain, I have no right.
I have no idea what my family and I are in for right now, I just know that life changing things are happening and I doubt that much will be the same when it is all said and done. To anyone who may happen to read this, please be praying.
Here's to tomorrow,
Hannah Leigh.