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i dont know if this works anymore
if anyone can read it
or if anyone wants to
im super depressed and i need an outlet. not one of my college applications is finished and i just fouund these "supplementals" that require an essay and if i dont send it in it basically means i have no chance of those colleges, if i have any chance left as of now that is
tomorrow is banquet and i dont want it to come because i don't want it to be over
and because my hair is gonna suck i dont know what makeup to wear and a butt load of more shallow reasons...thats sad
i still havent broken the ice to my mother that i actually wanna go somewhere afterwards...that'll b fun
i think i have met my husband...what!??! yah i know...psychotic...but i want to be with him always which is so scary
the only up side to my life as of now is im going skiing with my youth group this weekend. which actually has its down points
because it is my last youth group trip ever because im graduating and because it isnt really a religious trip at all...just mass in the morning, i feel ike i need the religious aspect in my life more then anything right now
oh heres the cherry, lenny will be there...so if i had any gleaming hope of leaving my problems behind..they are literally coming with me, thats a real blast
and while wallowing in my "misery" i checked profiles and....i saw things to christina and i realized i suck at life
it shouldnt b this bad in my eyes
if anyone can read it
or if anyone wants to
im super depressed and i need an outlet. not one of my college applications is finished and i just fouund these "supplementals" that require an essay and if i dont send it in it basically means i have no chance of those colleges, if i have any chance left as of now that is
tomorrow is banquet and i dont want it to come because i don't want it to be over
and because my hair is gonna suck i dont know what makeup to wear and a butt load of more shallow reasons...thats sad
i still havent broken the ice to my mother that i actually wanna go somewhere afterwards...that'll b fun
i think i have met my husband...what!??! yah i know...psychotic...but i want to be with him always which is so scary
the only up side to my life as of now is im going skiing with my youth group this weekend. which actually has its down points
because it is my last youth group trip ever because im graduating and because it isnt really a religious trip at all...just mass in the morning, i feel ike i need the religious aspect in my life more then anything right now
oh heres the cherry, lenny will be there...so if i had any gleaming hope of leaving my problems behind..they are literally coming with me, thats a real blast
and while wallowing in my "misery" i checked profiles and....i saw things to christina and i realized i suck at life
it shouldnt b this bad in my eyes