obsession with perfection/the media/ my hollywood idols
--- i've always been aware of my weight. even in elementary school i would compare the size of my legs with my friends. my biggest fear in middle school was being 100 lbs. now i'd die to be 100 lbs. literally i guess. it's what i'm doing now. i keep a pair of abercrombie & fitch jeans i haven't been able to fit in in four years. their my "dream jeans". i'll know i've succeeded when the rest comfortably on my hips and loosely around my thighs.
--- yeah so i always rolled my eyes when i saw so-called "experts" on the news talking about the teenage girl weight issue epedemic, blaming the media. i hated how they lumped all females ages 13-18 into one category claimed i was changing my body because lindsay lohan had lost two pounds. sure i wouldn't mind being young rich and beautiful like the hollywood starlets but they're not the reason why i only have green tea in the morning. i'm not a hollywood obsessed robot, im a real human being.
--- those i admire in hollywood evoke more than blind admiration. they're inspirations to me and others. i strive to be like them because they have qualities that go beyond shallow glitzy material worth. some gals i look up to: rihanna, adrianna lima, america ferrera, colbie caillat (for her cool vibe) , beyonce, hayden panetierre. some guys: denzel washington, chris brown (for being a mama's boy!), timbaland, milo ventimiglia..
peace out, <3 rizzy