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Well, Im pretty damn busy this week. Other than summer school 4 and a half hours every morning this week- I'm Working tuesday, year book bonfire on wendesday(YAY for smores!!!!), Work Friday, and work saturday. . . nothing on thursday though- so maybe we can all go to shabu??? i know kev, andrea, and elisa went on tuesday but i need to go out somewhere! i hate being stuck all week doing work and school. Plus, i know this is common for everyone, but im really not liking my parents right now. My mother inparticular. I know she doesnt hate me and she really loves me right? But im REALLY starting to lose it with her. It seems that whenever i see her- morning, noon, or night- she's angry with me. For anything and everything. I've been home for a total of maybe 30 minutes and she's yelling at me even now because im "spending too much time on my computer" which apparently is the reason for my so called "fuckd up life." but you know . . . if it wasnt my computer, then it's TV, reading too much, or even work that's fucking up my life. Im stuck because i cant figure out if my mom is only temporarily being angry due to some hormonal imbalance or if it was like this always and i was too young to notice. Everytime i see her- even if im in a fantastic mood she'll be angry with me- ill be like "good morning mom, how are you doing today?" and she'll respond with "your make-up is on too thick, have u taken your pill(GOD meaghan, you have to take your pill!! you know that!! And have you worked out?!?! what's your plan for today?! you need to tell me meaghan!! Ugh!! i can't deal with this. So what's your plan huh?!?" i haven't had a normal conversation with her in months . . . i started to notice our growing a part around september of last year. . . that's why im thinking that the cause of all the tension between us has to do with some hormonal imbalance of hers- possibly menopause. . . i dont know.. . all i know is i'm crying more than i used to . . . and it's making me terribly dehydrated : )