my head is made up of memories, most of them useless dillusions
we have one more day of school and i can't wait.
ive just started remembering last year ad how i felt about this rime of year..wow if only i could relive 8th grade over and over again..id be so happy.
i really miss chloe. i'm not trying to sound lesbian or nething but last year our friendship grew bcuz of portillos class..but i got to kno the girl and shes really neato. if i had stayed at the hall i kno we wouldve been better friends.
its just hard sometimes. to look back and see what you could've had what you would've had if only you had stayed in the game longer. regrets..none. just sad that me and chloe couldnt be better friends. with about two friends at school and about 3 or 4 more out of school, i feel sort of trapped. not in a bad way but just because friends get tiresome sometimes and its good to have more than one group of friends. im starting to make new friends at reagan..a little late..but at least im starting. its not looking too good for the incarnate word thing>>its probably too late to apply to go and then wut happens if i dont like the school?? too much of a risk i'd say. dont get me wrong..its great to take risks but dont take the ones that look gloomy in the probable outcome. o well so i guess for another year..im going to reagan. then for junior year who knows..i might wnt to stay at reagan..i might have great friends there and not want to leave them. i might find something i hate about IW and definitely NOT want to go.. no matter what the outcome though, ill always miss the uniforms and the small private school scene. i mean, last year i knew everyone in my grade and i had been friends with all of them at one point in middle school. my shoes were a legend and the uniforms were i dont really know what to think. saint mary's hall has turned into more of a memory for me now. i dont keep up with my friends like i wanted to and im starting to forget every exact detail that i told myself i wouldn't. its saddening, yes but also reflective. i never talk to charlie anymore and i never talk to tres. infact all of the really great relationships i had last year are now more distant relationships than anything. hopefully this summer will change things. i hope to spend more time with my friends. this summer is to be one of accomplishments. i sound like an idiot. this summer, i hope, will be fun and refreshing and easy. swimteam is going to suck. so will the grand canyon trip. when i get to Cali is when i'll start relaxing. [not sure if i want to go tho becasue the whole trip is going to take like 3 weeks! ill miss evryone too much] i haven't done a meaningful journal in a while so im proud of this one, even though i sound a little retarded and old. well im out because its only 3 45, i can still get in a jog if i hurry!
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ive just started remembering last year ad how i felt about this rime of year..wow if only i could relive 8th grade over and over again..id be so happy.
i really miss chloe. i'm not trying to sound lesbian or nething but last year our friendship grew bcuz of portillos class..but i got to kno the girl and shes really neato. if i had stayed at the hall i kno we wouldve been better friends.
its just hard sometimes. to look back and see what you could've had what you would've had if only you had stayed in the game longer. regrets..none. just sad that me and chloe couldnt be better friends. with about two friends at school and about 3 or 4 more out of school, i feel sort of trapped. not in a bad way but just because friends get tiresome sometimes and its good to have more than one group of friends. im starting to make new friends at reagan..a little late..but at least im starting. its not looking too good for the incarnate word thing>>its probably too late to apply to go and then wut happens if i dont like the school?? too much of a risk i'd say. dont get me wrong..its great to take risks but dont take the ones that look gloomy in the probable outcome. o well so i guess for another year..im going to reagan. then for junior year who knows..i might wnt to stay at reagan..i might have great friends there and not want to leave them. i might find something i hate about IW and definitely NOT want to go.. no matter what the outcome though, ill always miss the uniforms and the small private school scene. i mean, last year i knew everyone in my grade and i had been friends with all of them at one point in middle school. my shoes were a legend and the uniforms were i dont really know what to think. saint mary's hall has turned into more of a memory for me now. i dont keep up with my friends like i wanted to and im starting to forget every exact detail that i told myself i wouldn't. its saddening, yes but also reflective. i never talk to charlie anymore and i never talk to tres. infact all of the really great relationships i had last year are now more distant relationships than anything. hopefully this summer will change things. i hope to spend more time with my friends. this summer is to be one of accomplishments. i sound like an idiot. this summer, i hope, will be fun and refreshing and easy. swimteam is going to suck. so will the grand canyon trip. when i get to Cali is when i'll start relaxing. [not sure if i want to go tho becasue the whole trip is going to take like 3 weeks! ill miss evryone too much] i haven't done a meaningful journal in a while so im proud of this one, even though i sound a little retarded and old. well im out because its only 3 45, i can still get in a jog if i hurry!
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*multiple scoop