don't let past experiences affect the person I am.
Have you ever met someone that gets lost in their past and then you feel like you are just in the way? you feel invisible in the present because you weren't part of those memories. And then you wonder, how often do they think about the past? And the actions you take forth on a regular day to day basis, and the tendencies that you are born with...will they reflect something that will trigger them to go back to a moment? And with that are you present there in the moment with them, or not? It's questions that make you feel a bit inadequate and makes you react differently because you don't want them to think back but rather to take you as you are... as the person you where designed to be. For me though, I consider myself to have many characteristics and things that others have, because I often get told by people that I remind them of someone and/or something. In that I find that it makes me unique, because it creates a sense of comfort in people which I find to be a gift and also it probably may take 5 girls and/or people to equal me, because of my multiple qualities, but instead of that person appreciating that and taking it as it is, they rather restrict me within certain aspects of things. Who cares if a moment brings you back?! I am me and my own person, what about my sign of being an Aries, does that bring you back to someone you knew that was an Aries? or my birth month... should I have not been born then because of a possibility that it can affect the way you view me because you might compare me to another? in the sense of it all, it's really just not fair. And if I chose to go off and buy things for hobby's sake, then what? you can't stop me from using the things that I buy and learn to the things that I would like to educate myself in deprive me from gaining certain knowledge because it will take you on a trip from a past relationship. If the more that one person was like that then the world and people wouldn't live as it is and one of the problems of having multiple relationships is this and then I'm fucked because I always remind someone of something or a person in their lives, whether it'd be a friend, a relative or something, I've always get that from people and that in itself is a gift I believe and I shouldn't be shunned nor restricted from it. So therefor, within those restrictions and comparisons a distance is being formed, because I hobby that I can place myself to do next to you and share with you is now in a way, being forced upon me to find it elsewhere, whether find a school or lessons, play at my friend's house or buy the things I need and then set them up somewhere else, because it can't be done around you to save you headspace, but you have to realize that it won't save you headspace because I am being compared to other things and partners regardless then. Also, that same night and a few minutes after that moment, God showed you a sign that you can be reminded regardless if I do it or not, because there in your old files where remembrance of the past and that particular person, so think about it and don't restrict us because of something from your past it's not fair to us.