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Ok, so here I am.
I think of everything I've had at moments in my life. I am not alone. I never really have been. If anything, it's always been a matter of miscommunication. It's my perception. The way I've chosen to see things. I've let people go in my life out of fear of abandonment. Out of fear of rejection. I do not do that anymore. I forgive now. I don't hold myself so high. It only leads to disappointment when there isn't ever a moment necessary for such a feeling. I can't believe he is leaving. I feel as though I've left part of my family go. As though I could have been there more. Been more understanding...something.
I think of everything I've had at moments in my life. I am not alone. I never really have been. If anything, it's always been a matter of miscommunication. It's my perception. The way I've chosen to see things. I've let people go in my life out of fear of abandonment. Out of fear of rejection. I do not do that anymore. I forgive now. I don't hold myself so high. It only leads to disappointment when there isn't ever a moment necessary for such a feeling. I can't believe he is leaving. I feel as though I've left part of my family go. As though I could have been there more. Been more understanding...something.