BLOG CONFESSIONS
BLOG CONFESSIONS
Chapter 1
JJ’dHERO Blog
Dec. 29, 2012 5:07 PM
Hi everybody! How’s everybody doing? I’ve been so busy these past few days that I keep forgetting about updating my blog. I’m sorry. But guess what?? I have some juicy news for all of you to make up for my absence.
(Just to be sure, I’m pretty confident no one really knows who I am right? Well except for my two friends which I’m very sure they wouldn’t tell a soul and.. well I’m babbling already. Just making sure, cause this is some serious stuff.. for me anyway. No one knows me personally right? I really really hope so..)
Going on with my story, I wouldn’t expect anyone to really be interested in me since it would be all about me well that’s the purpose of having a blog and yeah I’m babbling again cause I think I’m going crazy and yeah I just discovered something unbelievable about myself after all these years I finally solved who I am.
Well it is a juicy stuff cause it’s not everyday that you can read a blog about a man going out of the closet. Yep, you read that right, I finally found out that I’m… well gay. Maybe bi..? I don’t know still confused but still I like boys more than girls..? oh god, admitting it feels like I’ve let go of everything I ever worked hard for. I don’t know if I’m thrilled or scared to finally realize this fact. Thank God I have friends that wouldn’t judge me because of these. Love you guys, you know who you are.
Maybe you’re asking how I found out. Well it’s the fault of a Korean version of the greek god “whoever-that-has-the-most-perfect-body-and-face.” At first I thought it was just admiration-jealous feeling for having a nice muscularly sculpted body that I could never in a million years could have. You see, I’m the type that could grow muscles but my body remains skinny that they’re not noticeable even if I don’t have a shirt on already. But man, he has like a jacket over a sweater and you could still see how nice his bod is!
I found myself staring at him more than what would be allowed and I found that I’m just not admiring his features but also his good heart. And yeah, there I was falling deeper and deeper. He is my first love and unfortunately it is one-sided. I don’t even know if he’ll accept a boy-boy relationship. I mean he’s not judgmental but who in their right mind would like a boy like me? For goodness sake, I look like a.. a dork, nerd, geek whatever.
I’ve been harboring these feelings for about four months now. He’s all I ever think about these days. I wanna know more about him but I just can’t approach him with no excuse I would look like a dork. (See how limited my vocabulary is these days. And I was best in English for nothing after all)
Oh well. That’s it. If someone’s reading this entry please, I need some love, some hugs and cookies? Comments are loved, advices are hugs xoxo this is J’d HERO
COMMENTS:
DolphinNotes (Dec. 29, 2012 6:12 Pm)
nbsp; Hero, wow, I’m so shocked, you surprised us. You didn’t even bother telling us in person, I hate you! But well, I share your pain man. I’m also in that kind of shit. Never approached my cush too, and to think that I’ve been liking this person for a very, very long time. You didn’t know that huh? Now we’re even hahahaha
JJ’dHERO (Dec. 29, 2012 6:15 PM)
That. Is. so. Not. fair! You’ve known it since ages ago but I’ve just come to accept my fate you know?!! You’ve got to tell me all about it!
MI.totheC.K.Y (Dec. 29, 2012 6:45 PM)
What the hell is this shit? Is this real mehn? You mean all three of us are gays and are in a one-sided shit! Mehn, some friends we are, I tell yah! I’ll help you JJ’dHERO to get your man!
Yaaah! @DolphinNotes who the hell is he? You dare keep that secret from me?!
DolphinNotes (Dec. 29, 2012 6:56 PM)
Look who’s talking! If I tell, will you tell yours? Of course you won’t you selfish ass!
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MI.totheC.K.Y. (Dec. 29, 2012 6:58 PM)
…How’d you know? Peace out! Chill dude
JJ’dHERo (Dec. 29, 2012 6:57 PM)
You’ll help me?? Really? Thank you! I love you soulmate, mwuuaaah!
Mi.totheC.K.Y (Dec. 29, 2012 7:00 PM)
Eww, save that kiss for your ‘greek god’ though I’m sure I look waaay better than he does.
U.Know.I.Know (Dec. 31, 2012 5:33 PM)
Hi! I stumbled upon this blog long ago, been reading about your stuff and then you’ve been gone for so long. I thought you’ve left this forever and I regretted so much for not even giving one comment before. Sorry about that. I enjoyed reading your blog and it never failed to make me happy, that is why I was overly ecstatic to have seen you update about your life.
I bet you’ve found it hard to admit it huh? I did too, just a few months ago, I too, discovered that I was a bi. I still do like girls but boys just calls out to me too. Unlike you, I’m afraid to tell the people around me cause they all think that I’m so great and manly. But I had too cause I hate lying to people I love. I told my parents and they were so disappointed for what I’ve become, my mother is being okay with it now but my father is still angry. My bestfriend who I’ve thought would understand me, stayed away from me for a while, but thank goodness for the time we’ve spent together, he has become open-minded for me. It wasn’t easy for me and I hope that you wouldn’t have to experience that.
Btw, happy new year J
JJ’dHERO (Jan. 1, 2013 4:30 AM)
Hey! Thank you for reading my blog, I appreciate it so much. And also for telling me about your story, thank you. Well, as they say, ‘what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger’ so I hope that the experience you had made you stronger inside. It’s unfortunate that you’ve gone through that but it only made things better now right?
As for me, I don’t know if I could tell my parents, it will be really hard since I’m their only son and for them having 8 other daughters, they’re expecting me to bring the family name on. How about I just knocked some girl out then get our baby then tell them? Haha, that would be hilarious, I could just picture their faces.
Btw, have a happy new start ahead of you. Don’t be like me, starting my year being drunk, having a major hangover later, ugh, don’t. So totally not worth it, if only I don’t love my two sorry excuses for best friends I would have been in a better state now. Haha. Hope to see more of your comments later J