Oh how the tables have turned.
In a matter of like two weeks everything has flipped.
I fell for Jake just like i knew I would but was horrified to.
And like i should have known, he's gone and distant.
He's got the feelings for me, but is too scared of hurting me to be with me.
He should have just lied and told me he didn't have any feelings for me.
I can take a couple days or even hours and get over that.
But this way I am questioning EVERYTHING !!
I keep thinking "what about me wasn't good enough? what did i do wrong ? "
and most importantly " why won't he take the chance with me but he did with her ?" (you should all know the HER that I am referring to)
I hate that I am losing this amazing guy but if he doesn't want me than I can't make him.
...I did have two amazing days with him and he's hopefully still going to be my friend but who knows lol .
Still haven't started running or anything....sry...I only want to sleep.
I'm going to try to make myself do SOMETHING tommorrow.
I fell for Jake just like i knew I would but was horrified to.
And like i should have known, he's gone and distant.
He's got the feelings for me, but is too scared of hurting me to be with me.
He should have just lied and told me he didn't have any feelings for me.
I can take a couple days or even hours and get over that.
But this way I am questioning EVERYTHING !!
I keep thinking "what about me wasn't good enough? what did i do wrong ? "
and most importantly " why won't he take the chance with me but he did with her ?" (you should all know the HER that I am referring to)
I hate that I am losing this amazing guy but if he doesn't want me than I can't make him.
...I did have two amazing days with him and he's hopefully still going to be my friend but who knows lol .
Still haven't started running or anything....sry...I only want to sleep.
I'm going to try to make myself do SOMETHING tommorrow.