memior. death. intensive. ca$h.
Of course something good happens and then something horrible.
It's quick and to the point.
I got unemployment and got all my back pay.
Paying my bills.
Still REALLY want ta job.
Go to moms and hangout.
Phone call.
Cousin and his family got in a car accident ( he was more like an uncle )
...he didn't make it...
His son and wife are in intensive care.
They just moved to florida so we can't even go see them...
My mom looks like she may never smile again...grandpa's tears stay in his eyes since he got the call.
I'm stoic.
I wonder if there's something wrong with me because I'm not crying and I don't feel anything but coldness.
I guess now I just shut down.
I feel so much more alone now, but I know I am strong enough...even if I'm emotionless.
I do feel my moms pain, I hurt because she's in pain. Not much but some. She's taking it hard and I can look at her and know the pain and memories won't leave her.
The other purpose of this post. I'm writing everything down. Everything that's gone down in my life that I can remember.
I think if i ever finish it I'll send it off for the pros to read and see what they think.
My fingers hurt from typing, but I have so much to write that I'm not stopping right now.
I love you guys more than you know and miss you all...
It's quick and to the point.
I got unemployment and got all my back pay.
Paying my bills.
Still REALLY want ta job.
Go to moms and hangout.
Phone call.
Cousin and his family got in a car accident ( he was more like an uncle )
...he didn't make it...
His son and wife are in intensive care.
They just moved to florida so we can't even go see them...
My mom looks like she may never smile again...grandpa's tears stay in his eyes since he got the call.
I'm stoic.
I wonder if there's something wrong with me because I'm not crying and I don't feel anything but coldness.
I guess now I just shut down.
I feel so much more alone now, but I know I am strong enough...even if I'm emotionless.
I do feel my moms pain, I hurt because she's in pain. Not much but some. She's taking it hard and I can look at her and know the pain and memories won't leave her.
The other purpose of this post. I'm writing everything down. Everything that's gone down in my life that I can remember.
I think if i ever finish it I'll send it off for the pros to read and see what they think.
My fingers hurt from typing, but I have so much to write that I'm not stopping right now.
I love you guys more than you know and miss you all...