I just don't know.

[lovelovely17]

There's a jar of change (almost full/thanks to scotty mostly)
And I have no idea what i'm going to do with it.
Save it for a rainy day?

It was for Warped tour but i'm not going...I need to teach myself to stop spending.....it's hard for me.
Need to save.
I don't know what I want anymore.
Art School? Ferris? Tattoo?
I feel like doing all will not make me great at them....i want to balance it all but I don't know if that is possible.....no clue....scared.
I want it all and a family.....I feel selfish like i'm trying to take it all.
But If i can take it all why not ?
Why not be that girl that does it all?
I feel like i should atleast try but it still scares me.

I design outfits,
sketch randomly,
make jewelry,
for fun.
But does that really mean these things are right for me ?
I'm just worried I guess.
I miss my lovely friends, no one to bounce off of that can help me figure this all out.
My whole family says "Do what's right for you." even dad.
I know getting myself better is right for me but I can't not go to school during that time.
Online art classes here I come.
Hopefully I'll start to feel more set when i get myself figured out.
Until then i Float around.