i'll make it sticky sweet...
i am determined to start blogging everyday. i find that it's good to spend at least 10 or 15 minutes at the end of every day collecting my thoughts. it's though tho, because twitter and facebook mean that im pretty much blogging all day long in tiny bursts. but i really don't say anything of substance in those forums. i really should be blogging to collect myself.
i've been very up and down lately. for a couple of years, my bipolar seemed to be more or less in control. but i feel increasingly out of control over my own moods lately. ever since the wedding, i guess. because so much of my time and energy went into that. and then after it happened, all of a sudden there was nothing. it was just this big empty hole where a something used to be. and on top of that, it felt like nothing changed between david and i. which was sort of mildly heartbreaking.
hopefully, getting on a good schedule and finding something to like about myself will help put things in perspective. going to start working out and eating better. so this might turn out to just be a place to catalog the progress im making or what i ate today...but it'll be something.
i've been very up and down lately. for a couple of years, my bipolar seemed to be more or less in control. but i feel increasingly out of control over my own moods lately. ever since the wedding, i guess. because so much of my time and energy went into that. and then after it happened, all of a sudden there was nothing. it was just this big empty hole where a something used to be. and on top of that, it felt like nothing changed between david and i. which was sort of mildly heartbreaking.
hopefully, getting on a good schedule and finding something to like about myself will help put things in perspective. going to start working out and eating better. so this might turn out to just be a place to catalog the progress im making or what i ate today...but it'll be something.