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just thought i would say hey since i havent updated today. im going out with some of my gurls in about 2 hours so im gonna start getting ready soon. we are going to a party at someones house. i dont really know the details yet.
i had a really good phone call with ethan last night. we were talking about christmas and how he doesnt know if he is going to get to go to key west with my family or not. i really hope he can go but part of me wants him to go back home to see his family. he hasnt been home since summer and i know that his family misses him. he says he would rather spend the holidays with me but i feel like part of it is that he is wanting to watch me instead of be with me. like hes afraid that if hes not there that i will do something bad and get into trouble. i guess he knows me too well. after the fiasco that happened last christmas i really dont blame him but i would really like to think that i am in the process of changing. but like any problem, it is really hard to go cold turkey. i want to get better and i will because i love ethan and i dont want to hurt him anymore.
ill update tonight when i get home...probably with some pics!!!
gabs
i had a really good phone call with ethan last night. we were talking about christmas and how he doesnt know if he is going to get to go to key west with my family or not. i really hope he can go but part of me wants him to go back home to see his family. he hasnt been home since summer and i know that his family misses him. he says he would rather spend the holidays with me but i feel like part of it is that he is wanting to watch me instead of be with me. like hes afraid that if hes not there that i will do something bad and get into trouble. i guess he knows me too well. after the fiasco that happened last christmas i really dont blame him but i would really like to think that i am in the process of changing. but like any problem, it is really hard to go cold turkey. i want to get better and i will because i love ethan and i dont want to hurt him anymore.
ill update tonight when i get home...probably with some pics!!!
gabs