why do i care?
you can say what you want about this .. but like swim is taking over my life! like my relationships with my friends are growing tighter \\ but in some cases they are suffering .. like with becky. like becca and me were amazing friends. i love her to deathh and watch out if you try to hurt my beckk!;] but now things juss bloww bc she is so mad at me. i dont understand why people do the things they do. becky only threatened to quit the team to back up her sister. why would anyone ever do that? i mean maybe its juss me, and maybe swim is intertwined too tightly into my everyday life but i mean.. wow... thats dedication to the maXx rite there;] .. becky juss seemed like such a free thing.. like a leaf.. blowing around.. and yet turns out she is very attatched to katie.. it surprised me.
this whole thing would all be over if i could put my pride back on the shelf for juss one tiny second. but i juss cant do it.. i cant get my pride out of the way.. i cant let myself find respect in someone who would quit on their team.. im sorry. i dont respect quitters. thats juss the way i am. and im talking about becky.
i juss wish me n beck would go back to the way things were. its getting so hard to untangle life from swim and i wish we could go back to that place where practice after school was the only way swim got involved in my social life. but i take that back before i finish typing it. i love swim. i love swim so much that it doesnt matter to me that i dont get home til 5 each and every nite.. swim has played a huge role in my life.. im healthier, im stronger, im leaner i mean i dropped like 12 pounds since i started swim! thats insane!! i love it=]
well thats all for now.. love yahss<3
-anna<3