I know how you feel, both the "outside" ring kinda deal and the being made fun of, I wasn't the one being pysically beat up, that was reserved for my brother, but I did get alot of the nasty names and junk that went with our family, some nice kids trashed my first set of scriptures beyond repair, and I usually got in trouble with people for telling the truth about it afterwards...Anyways, the best thing for me as far as that outsider thing goes is to listen to the people around me and not try to fit in, I am not made to fit in a social mold very well and when I try to fit in I end up fitting nowhere, not even with myself, I know how the friend thing feels to, as close as some friends can seem sometimes, there is no one who I can completly trust to tell some things to. You are one amazing chica! There is nothing wrong with you! And don't try to change yourself, it will never work, let Him do the changing, I hope that doesn't sound to preachy or anything but when I considered suicide once for reasons I will not enurmerate, He was the reason I didn't, and when I stopped worrying about trying to fix what was broken, and simply focused on what I COULD do, it became easier. Once I accept the extreme likelyhood that I'm going to live a much shorter life than most it becomes easier to move on and live it to the fullest, OK, enough of my ramblings... Lisa if anyone ever tells you anything like that again you had better not believe them. You are not fat, you are not a bad person, {you don't have pointy ears either so you can't be a horse}, you are not any of those things at all. I think you are quite brave as well, telling about it when things are going wrong is often as hard as going through it. Just be yourself, and learn to like yourself, because you are goign to be with you longer than with anyone else, and it help-s if you can enjoy your own company, I enjoy yours, and I hope you can see what a amazing person you are. Chopsticks!!!
You are one amazing chica! There is nothing wrong with you! And don't try to change yourself, it will never work, let Him do the changing, I hope that doesn't sound to preachy or anything but when I considered suicide once for reasons I will not enurmerate, He was the reason I didn't, and when I stopped worrying about trying to fix what was broken, and simply focused on what I COULD do, it became easier. Once I accept the extreme likelyhood that I'm going to live a much shorter life than most it becomes easier to move on and live it to the fullest, OK, enough of my ramblings...
Lisa if anyone ever tells you anything like that again you had better not believe them. You are not fat, you are not a bad person, {you don't have pointy ears either so you can't be a horse}, you are not any of those things at all. I think you are quite brave as well, telling about it when things are going wrong is often as hard as going through it. Just be yourself, and learn to like yourself, because you are goign to be with you longer than with anyone else, and it help-s if you can enjoy your own company, I enjoy yours, and I hope you can see what a amazing person you are.
Chopsticks!!!
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