from me to you. i know the feeling. i have been there (not girls beating me up but i know what it's like to be an outsider) that would be the story of my life. never apart of one group...kinda friends with everybody. the girl that gets forgotten when lots of others are around. lisa. there is nothing wrong with you. you are the way you are for a reason and trying to fit in will only make things worse. trust me. been there...done that. my whole family has done that. none of us have people flocking around. but honestly. you are an amazing girl and if some people can't see that then they're stupid. i know i'm not so good at socializing myself. but. when my german arrives (5 days 5 days!) you will help me entertain her (while thus entertaining yourself). which will probably not consist of more than driving around in my car but i have found that to be quite fun. i mean you find places you never knew exsisted. it's almost as good as finding a whole nation nobodys ever heard of. anyways i'm babbling. just remember you are amazing and people love you. even if they don't always show it. <333
I know how you feel, both the "outside" ring kinda deal and the being made fun of, I wasn't the one being pysically beat up, that was reserved for my brother, but I did get alot of the nasty names and junk that went with our family, some nice kids trashed my first set of scriptures beyond repair, and I usually got in trouble with people for telling the truth about it afterwards...Anyways, the best thing for me as far as that outsider thing goes is to listen to the people around me and not try to fit in, I am not made to fit in a social mold very well and when I try to fit in I end up fitting nowhere, not even with myself, I know how the friend thing feels to, as close as some friends can seem sometimes, there is no one who I can completly trust to tell some things to. You are one amazing chica! There is nothing wrong with you! And don't try to change yourself, it will never work, let Him do the changing, I hope that doesn't sound to preachy or anything but when I considered suicide once for reasons I will not enurmerate, He was the reason I didn't, and when I stopped worrying about trying to fix what was broken, and simply focused on what I COULD do, it became easier. Once I accept the extreme likelyhood that I'm going to live a much shorter life than most it becomes easier to move on and live it to the fullest, OK, enough of my ramblings... Lisa if anyone ever tells you anything like that again you had better not believe them. You are not fat, you are not a bad person, {you don't have pointy ears either so you can't be a horse}, you are not any of those things at all. I think you are quite brave as well, telling about it when things are going wrong is often as hard as going through it. Just be yourself, and learn to like yourself, because you are goign to be with you longer than with anyone else, and it help-s if you can enjoy your own company, I enjoy yours, and I hope you can see what a amazing person you are. Chopsticks!!!
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You are one amazing chica! There is nothing wrong with you! And don't try to change yourself, it will never work, let Him do the changing, I hope that doesn't sound to preachy or anything but when I considered suicide once for reasons I will not enurmerate, He was the reason I didn't, and when I stopped worrying about trying to fix what was broken, and simply focused on what I COULD do, it became easier. Once I accept the extreme likelyhood that I'm going to live a much shorter life than most it becomes easier to move on and live it to the fullest, OK, enough of my ramblings...
Lisa if anyone ever tells you anything like that again you had better not believe them. You are not fat, you are not a bad person, {you don't have pointy ears either so you can't be a horse}, you are not any of those things at all. I think you are quite brave as well, telling about it when things are going wrong is often as hard as going through it. Just be yourself, and learn to like yourself, because you are goign to be with you longer than with anyone else, and it help-s if you can enjoy your own company, I enjoy yours, and I hope you can see what a amazing person you are.
Chopsticks!!!
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