You wouldn't even believe the week I've been having...
Yeah, it's been... well, nuts is the nicest way to describe it.
Saturday night we all got together, since D-kun wasn't going to be able to show up on Sunday... Noura-chan was spending the night because it's been FOREVER since I last got to see my littlest sister. And surprise of surprises, Will shows up! So we all (all meaning Lacus, Kimmy, D-kun, Noura-chan, Will, my brother and I) all go out to eat and play massive amounts of DDR. Later that night, on the way to hastings, I kid you fucking not, we saw a shooting star, so damn close you could see all the colors in it! Oh holy shit that was a gorgeous thing! Sunday, we all just hung out and watched Kimmy play The Bouncer. We were bored, let's just say that.
Now... I'm just kind of confused. I mean... D-kun and I are together, yes, but I feel like a little kid around him. I'm scared to say or do the wrong thing, afraid I'll end up worse off than last time. Last time it wasn't a pain for my boyfriend to break up with me. This time, I can't do that love from afar thing anymore. I thank my stars every day that I ended up with a good guy this time instead of a fucking douche like the last few I dated. And I realize I must seem cold and uncaring when he jokes like he's flirting, and I don't get mad, but that's just it: I can tell it's a joke and I actually do have a sense of humor. I just hang back when that happens... I can't help it. I don't want to get mad over something like that. And I seem cold because of it... I just don't play like they do...
I guess I really am some kind of freak for not caring. I mean... I like him more than anyone I've ever dated, and I don't want to lose him, but I'm not going to get pissy over a joke. I dunno, maybe it's just that weird psychological shit going on again in my mind. Whatever. I'm out.
Saturday night we all got together, since D-kun wasn't going to be able to show up on Sunday... Noura-chan was spending the night because it's been FOREVER since I last got to see my littlest sister. And surprise of surprises, Will shows up! So we all (all meaning Lacus, Kimmy, D-kun, Noura-chan, Will, my brother and I) all go out to eat and play massive amounts of DDR. Later that night, on the way to hastings, I kid you fucking not, we saw a shooting star, so damn close you could see all the colors in it! Oh holy shit that was a gorgeous thing! Sunday, we all just hung out and watched Kimmy play The Bouncer. We were bored, let's just say that.
Now... I'm just kind of confused. I mean... D-kun and I are together, yes, but I feel like a little kid around him. I'm scared to say or do the wrong thing, afraid I'll end up worse off than last time. Last time it wasn't a pain for my boyfriend to break up with me. This time, I can't do that love from afar thing anymore. I thank my stars every day that I ended up with a good guy this time instead of a fucking douche like the last few I dated. And I realize I must seem cold and uncaring when he jokes like he's flirting, and I don't get mad, but that's just it: I can tell it's a joke and I actually do have a sense of humor. I just hang back when that happens... I can't help it. I don't want to get mad over something like that. And I seem cold because of it... I just don't play like they do...
I guess I really am some kind of freak for not caring. I mean... I like him more than anyone I've ever dated, and I don't want to lose him, but I'm not going to get pissy over a joke. I dunno, maybe it's just that weird psychological shit going on again in my mind. Whatever. I'm out.