true love
i think this happens alot. as does the pain of it NOT working out. i have LOVED so many people, in so many different ways at so many different times for so many different reasons i can't even begin to write it all down. but i think, my IDEAL of true love goes a little something like this: being in AWE of someone, someone who makes you want to be a better person, mutual love, mutual respect, trust and honesty. terrific LOVE MAKING, common interests, common goals. the ability to do a crossword together, the ability to sit in silence or give that person thier space and to just know when it is needed. laughter. the ability to laugh at yourself in thier presence. no judgements being passed. there is no fear of rejection. knowing that when that person is having a bad day it has nothing to do with you, forgiving them when they are drunk and make an ass of themself. not hurting that other person, and they dont hurt you. HONESTY HONESTY HONESTY. KNOWING that when that beginning fairytale changes it isnt anything person but the way that life is and going with it, because if that person made you feel so damn special in the beginning why the fuck shouldnt you believe it. life happens, shit happens, reality happens. the key is to persist and keep with it. dont jump ship just because youre afraid. take a chance take a risk. and if it hurts in the end, well man, you arent going to die from it. have fun along the way. make love, make music, make laughter. those are the joys of life. some people get lucky and find someone who can put up with them forever. i have not been that lucky, and its okay. i dont need anyone except for myself. i dont need someone elses opinion of me to make me complete. true strength only comes from within, and if you can look yourself in the mirror everyday, then you've got it better than most people. a little affection along the way doesn't hurt. sins of the flesh are good, but i can live just as well without them.