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and just like that hes back in my life.
gone for 8 months than bam the door bell rings,
with my old life standing outside the door
all six feet of it.
i didnt think he was coming back...
i especially didnt think so soon.
so things have gotten really shakey.
i missed him so much and its so hard to pretend not to care
its so hard to hold back from kissing him.
but vance means so much to me.
i cant and i wont mess things up with vance again.
hes amazing& i want to be with him.
so i have to say goodbye to past, at least, romantically.
for now.
but other than that.
the past few days have been good.
rachel spent the weekend with me.
good times.
i have to tinkle. haha.
today was fun. got pulled over by the barnett cop haha.
saw my amazing friends.
all is good
besides the fact it has recently been brought to my attention that someone i care/cared about hates me. i thought we had fun together and i thought you were awesome. so what i dont shelter my friends. i want them to spend time with other people. so what i dont hardly call. i dont like the phone anymore & ive been sick/working/getting my grades up. god forbid i care about other things like grades. i dont need her when things go bad. i need her to be happy and i need her to have her freedom. i hadnt seen her in three weeks so was one weekend the wreck of your friendship? god and you call me the shitty friend. i do appreciate her and i did appreciate you. jealousy is a bitch man. shes welcome to have more than one best friend, i do. im not a clingy person, i want my friends to be able to make their own decisions. and i dont want to talk shit about you because i still think youre awesome despite you hating me and i respect her and you enough not to do that because i feel like even if you dont get along with someone if that is your best friends friend then you should respect them too. so yes i do understand that youre angry and im sorry. stop talking shit about how im a shitty friend because you have NO idea how many times ive been there for her and how much i care her. lets just agree to being indifferent because i dont have the time or the effort to put up with this bullshit drama because i dont care. i dont have to prove to you that i absolutely adore my best friends and would do anything for them. i thought we were friends but i guess not.
so stop the shit talking because i dont care what you think of me or how you compare to your old best friend.
just stop please. be civil. for her.
gone for 8 months than bam the door bell rings,
with my old life standing outside the door
all six feet of it.
i didnt think he was coming back...
i especially didnt think so soon.
so things have gotten really shakey.
i missed him so much and its so hard to pretend not to care
its so hard to hold back from kissing him.
but vance means so much to me.
i cant and i wont mess things up with vance again.
hes amazing& i want to be with him.
so i have to say goodbye to past, at least, romantically.
for now.
but other than that.
the past few days have been good.
rachel spent the weekend with me.
good times.
i have to tinkle. haha.
today was fun. got pulled over by the barnett cop haha.
saw my amazing friends.
all is good
besides the fact it has recently been brought to my attention that someone i care/cared about hates me. i thought we had fun together and i thought you were awesome. so what i dont shelter my friends. i want them to spend time with other people. so what i dont hardly call. i dont like the phone anymore & ive been sick/working/getting my grades up. god forbid i care about other things like grades. i dont need her when things go bad. i need her to be happy and i need her to have her freedom. i hadnt seen her in three weeks so was one weekend the wreck of your friendship? god and you call me the shitty friend. i do appreciate her and i did appreciate you. jealousy is a bitch man. shes welcome to have more than one best friend, i do. im not a clingy person, i want my friends to be able to make their own decisions. and i dont want to talk shit about you because i still think youre awesome despite you hating me and i respect her and you enough not to do that because i feel like even if you dont get along with someone if that is your best friends friend then you should respect them too. so yes i do understand that youre angry and im sorry. stop talking shit about how im a shitty friend because you have NO idea how many times ive been there for her and how much i care her. lets just agree to being indifferent because i dont have the time or the effort to put up with this bullshit drama because i dont care. i dont have to prove to you that i absolutely adore my best friends and would do anything for them. i thought we were friends but i guess not.
so stop the shit talking because i dont care what you think of me or how you compare to your old best friend.
just stop please. be civil. for her.