we're falling apart

[loveleavesblind]

ive been up and down lately.
i screw up a lot.
i like two best friends.
ive been super irritable lately.
i almost got beat up by some gangsta girl last night.
i mess up left and right.
believe it or not.
im really happy right now.

im extremely sick.
i slept all day.
i picked nikki up yesterday.
i spun out in my neighborhood
and almost hit a mailman
im quite the excellent driver.
im doped up on pm cold medicine
so im pretty much numb

i feel like i flop back and forth between people.
one minute i like kevan the next akeem the next you cant know
and the same one ive liked since i met him, vance.
i miss akeem.
i miss ray.
i miss how it feels to be in a relationship
i miss how i used to be stable and commit
but now im back and forth
one step forward two steps back...

but im happy.