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last night was a blur.
a lot of confusion.
. . . . . .i dont really know what to say. i feel bad for caring so much but then i feel even worse for not feeling bad. i could feel the room spinning but he kept holding my hand. why is life so goddamn confusing? why is it that im never happy with anything? i want so bad to trust someone, anyone. i have trust issues.
i miss things. things i shouldnt miss. i guess i miss feeling like i complete someone. singleness didnt take long to set in and scare me.
im afraid to be alone
on a lighter note:: max is taking me out for lunch and then possibly the mall. hes a sweet kid.
a lot of confusion.
. . . . . .i dont really know what to say. i feel bad for caring so much but then i feel even worse for not feeling bad. i could feel the room spinning but he kept holding my hand. why is life so goddamn confusing? why is it that im never happy with anything? i want so bad to trust someone, anyone. i have trust issues.
i miss things. things i shouldnt miss. i guess i miss feeling like i complete someone. singleness didnt take long to set in and scare me.
im afraid to be alone
on a lighter note:: max is taking me out for lunch and then possibly the mall. hes a sweet kid.