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Today would have been our 2-year anniversary.
I walked over to the rest shelter by the canal where we started, and where we ended. I like to call it a pagoda.
Maybe because I prepped myself while walking over, but I didn’t feel so disappointed not seeing you there.
I wanted to sit down, but there was a small cockroach.
I stood in front waiting for your arrival, listening to the sound of water after rain.
I want to keep this moment with me, even though you are not here.
There’s no more wondering about us.
I wonder about how you are doing after all this time. I wonder if you are thinking about me.
I also fear that you think about me negatively, but there’s nothing that I can do to salvage now. What’s done has been done.
I’m still the same old me in most ways. I haven’t improved much.
I rather you not think about me. You should be released of the shackles that is the pain I’ve caused you. I regret this is the way it ended. I regret that the best thing that I can do for you is to wish that I disappear from your memories. I regret I cannot give you comfort.
I know you are avoiding to see me.
I know you don’t want to have anything more to do with me again.
I stand here being in the moment, even though I know you wouldn’t come.
There are many ‘I’s here, because you are no longer here.
I’m sorry.
I know I probably placed myself a lot at the front between us when we were together.
You probably want to put time and effort to yourself, and to someone whom you think is deserving.
I sing the song that I sang when I first tried to give you up 2 years back.
I stand here not wanting to leave, but I know time will only pass. There’s no keeping time. Time stays for no one.
I’ll probably take a few year to put everything behind. Maybe.
This will be one of the dates that I keep with me for many more years to come.
I walked over to the rest shelter by the canal where we started, and where we ended. I like to call it a pagoda.
Maybe because I prepped myself while walking over, but I didn’t feel so disappointed not seeing you there.
I wanted to sit down, but there was a small cockroach.
I stood in front waiting for your arrival, listening to the sound of water after rain.
I want to keep this moment with me, even though you are not here.
There’s no more wondering about us.
I wonder about how you are doing after all this time. I wonder if you are thinking about me.
I also fear that you think about me negatively, but there’s nothing that I can do to salvage now. What’s done has been done.
I’m still the same old me in most ways. I haven’t improved much.
I rather you not think about me. You should be released of the shackles that is the pain I’ve caused you. I regret this is the way it ended. I regret that the best thing that I can do for you is to wish that I disappear from your memories. I regret I cannot give you comfort.
I know you are avoiding to see me.
I know you don’t want to have anything more to do with me again.
I stand here being in the moment, even though I know you wouldn’t come.
There are many ‘I’s here, because you are no longer here.
I’m sorry.
I know I probably placed myself a lot at the front between us when we were together.
You probably want to put time and effort to yourself, and to someone whom you think is deserving.
I sing the song that I sang when I first tried to give you up 2 years back.
I stand here not wanting to leave, but I know time will only pass. There’s no keeping time. Time stays for no one.
I’ll probably take a few year to put everything behind. Maybe.
This will be one of the dates that I keep with me for many more years to come.