i swear i'm not emo...
bleh. so i've been in a bad mood lately and its hard to explain why. i'm not happy with who i am right now. i keep comparing myself with others and thats not a good thing.
i wish i could be more witty.
i wish i were prettier.
i wish i were happy all the time.
i wish i had something worth while to say.
i wish i had self-confidence.
i wish i were nicer.
i wish i had more athletic ability.
i wish i had more talent.
i wish i were smarter.
i wish i had more energy.
i wish i were more lovable.
i wish i could talk openly about my feelings.
i wish i could hide my little annoyances instead of acting like a bitch.
i wish people told me i was cute, funny, etc. as often as "certain other ppl".
i wish i didnt fuckin compare myself to my friends.
there are times when im happy with who i am. right now just isnt one of those times. i feel lonely and stupid and annoying. i know thats not how im perceived by everyone, but its how i feel, and i cant help that.
i just want someone to hold. to love.