Youll Never See Me Cry
Wow what a blur. Lately. In and Out of the Mall. Christmas sucks. Working retail sucks. Watching everyone have someone sucks. Holidays remind us single people how lonely life really is. Did I need that reminder? No. So Ive been working alot. To keep my mind off of things. So I dont slip into a full on depression. Drinking way too much caffeine. Cursing way too much. Spending way to much money on peoples christmas gifts. Hooray for Christmas Spirit. Or should I say Holiday Spirit? Those fucking people. Thats who I hate. More than couples holding hands and walking too slow in the mall and standing on long lines for one item or encountering assholes who like to unfold every fucking sweater to find a size small. Its those that get offended when a person says "Merry Christmas." Or they feel the need to correct you. Like wishing them something nice isnt enough. Like it really fucking matters. And working in a low paying department store job has forced me to cir-come(sp?) to the public's pressure to be politically correct and use that fucking phrase. And with a smile to boot. And give them a coupon, gift receipts, and boxes. I cant wait till its all over. What a greedy fake holiday. So besides the problem with Christmas and my job, Im pretty happy. Just trying to piece together my life. And get it in order. Thats my New Year's resolution. And I think once I get my life together I'll be alot happier. To focus all my attention on making myself a better person. Not worrying about hurting peoples feelings or making them unhappy. Thats the plus side to being single. And then when Im finally put back together, I can focus on finding someone. And not be worried that I could fuck it up. Cause even though I wish certain people would stick around and put up with my bullshit I know thats selfish and they deserve better. Yes. Thats a very good idea.