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i think God hates me.
no lie.
he really must.
tonight was just quite possibly one of the most miserable nights EVER.
you know how everything seems to go wrong all at once?
that was tonight.
sometimes i think that God sits up in a little cubicle in heaven and just gets tired of hearing prayers so he just finds someone to pick on for the night. and it was me. great.
anyway.
as shitty as tonight was..
i'm able to laugh about it.
i tried to call kyle while i was walking across campus in the RAIN, because i knew he would make me laugh and feel better. but of course he didnt answer. it wasn't in the cards. so i left a voicemail, right? and at that moment, everything just hit me. every little thing tonight that went wrong just hit me like a ton of bricks and i couldn't stop laughing. seriously i laughed through the entire message, it was so ridiculous. even after i was done, i was just walking through Clemson giggling to myself. in the rain. like i wish i could have seen it because i probably looked like a retard, or just really messed up or something. IF ONLY.
but it just made me happy to think about the fact that i could step back from my life for a second and realize how much those things don't matter. like yeah. tonight was awful. but in the grand scheme of things, it's one shitty day in my life, as opposed to how many great ones? it's really a small price to pay. i even made friends with some random freshman who had as terrible a night as i did. we were both walking home and he was 10 feet in front of me, so i put myself out there. i had nothing to lose at that point, you know?
so yeah.
i don't even care.
about any of it.
i get home to my room and i'm super excited bc theres leftover chips on my desk, right?
5 seconds later, as if in slow motion, my chips get knocked on the floor, perfectly upside-down.
"What do you do? You laugh. I'm not saying I don't cry but in between, I laugh, and I realize how silly it is to take anything too seriously."
-Garden State
here's to shitty nights.
here's to awkward situations.
here's to things that shouldn't make you laugh, but do.
here's to staying positive when you have absolutely no real reason to be.
and most of all, here's to the beauty of life, seeing as it never fails to kick us in the ass every now and then.
<3
kelly.
no lie.
he really must.
tonight was just quite possibly one of the most miserable nights EVER.
you know how everything seems to go wrong all at once?
that was tonight.
sometimes i think that God sits up in a little cubicle in heaven and just gets tired of hearing prayers so he just finds someone to pick on for the night. and it was me. great.
anyway.
as shitty as tonight was..
i'm able to laugh about it.
i tried to call kyle while i was walking across campus in the RAIN, because i knew he would make me laugh and feel better. but of course he didnt answer. it wasn't in the cards. so i left a voicemail, right? and at that moment, everything just hit me. every little thing tonight that went wrong just hit me like a ton of bricks and i couldn't stop laughing. seriously i laughed through the entire message, it was so ridiculous. even after i was done, i was just walking through Clemson giggling to myself. in the rain. like i wish i could have seen it because i probably looked like a retard, or just really messed up or something. IF ONLY.
but it just made me happy to think about the fact that i could step back from my life for a second and realize how much those things don't matter. like yeah. tonight was awful. but in the grand scheme of things, it's one shitty day in my life, as opposed to how many great ones? it's really a small price to pay. i even made friends with some random freshman who had as terrible a night as i did. we were both walking home and he was 10 feet in front of me, so i put myself out there. i had nothing to lose at that point, you know?
so yeah.
i don't even care.
about any of it.
i get home to my room and i'm super excited bc theres leftover chips on my desk, right?
5 seconds later, as if in slow motion, my chips get knocked on the floor, perfectly upside-down.
"What do you do? You laugh. I'm not saying I don't cry but in between, I laugh, and I realize how silly it is to take anything too seriously."
-Garden State
here's to shitty nights.
here's to awkward situations.
here's to things that shouldn't make you laugh, but do.
here's to staying positive when you have absolutely no real reason to be.
and most of all, here's to the beauty of life, seeing as it never fails to kick us in the ass every now and then.
<3
kelly.