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sometimes i feel like just one of the guys.
case in point: tonight. i go over to watch the game at my friends' apartment, and i walk in to find 15 guys in there. i quickly scan the room, looking for another female face. none to be found. and none show up later. just me. there. watching the game. eating chips. drinking beer. yelling at the tv. with the guys.
sweet.
but then later on i get the "you look really sexy with your hair in a ponytail" comment which makes me feel somewhat better, haha. it was weird though because i don't ever get those compliments. maybe because i don't ever wear my hair up. i don't like my ears, and i know the general consensus of guys is that they like girls' hair down anyway. but it made me smile.
guys are so transparent. it's almost like a lightswitch being turned on, from when they are just not trying to hit on you, and then suddenly you can read every one of their moves.
that's when i roll my eyes and tell them what they want to hear, and silently escape the house when they aren't looking.
haha.
no that's mean. but sometimes i do that. and the best part is when guys call me out on it. they see me feeding one guy total bullshit, and the one looking on goes "you're lying".. as soon as the other guy leaves.
they called me out on actually drinking beer tonight. i guess it has been awhile. it just isn't my drink of choice anymore, it's not that i won't drink it, i just would prefer something else. if given the choice. i don't bong beers and i don't shotgun them so really they don't ever get me drunk.
however, the captain and i get along quite well. :)
i've decided that i don't try enough. that basically when i know that i will fail at something, or if i know i won't do as well as i would like to, i won't even make an effort. it's either like a 100% or nothing, and how many times are you really going to do 100% of what you set your mind to... it doesn't happen as often as i'd like.
things i want to do very soon:
--have my fortune told/palm read/tarot cards.. whatever
--see animals in the zoo.. i mean i just like animals, whats wrong with that?
--be hypnotized to eat healthy or to lose my fear of speaking in front of people
one time i wrote a list of every single thing i want in a guy. ever. from very broad to extremely random, nit-picky things. the perfect guy.
i left it in my drawer and that was at our old house so i'm pretty sure that got thrown away. which makes me so sad. haha. i would have liked to look back on it and see if any of that has changed.
another thing i've lost that makes me sad? this list of compliments i received in 10th grade. i had this cool teacher, Mrs. Fisher, who made us do this thing where we got all of our desks in a circle, and wrote our name at the top of a paper. then you pass the paper to your right. so you were given someone else's paper, and you had 1 minute to write something nice about them. a compliment. and it went around the whole room of 30 something people or so, and at the end of the class, we had a list of 30 things that our classmates found in us.
that thing truly meant a lot to me. i remember reading some of them and feeling so special because i had never thought that people saw me that way. and i can't remember what anyone said anymore, but i remember holding that paper and hoping that i would never lose it, because i knew it would be important sometime.
and here it is 4 years later and it's gone. maybe one day i'll find it in an old box or something. maybe when i need it the most. who knows.
it's the little things like that that make me want to be a teacher. if they didn't get paid SHIT. but really though.. i want to change kids lives. give them hope. make them feel invincible. believe in them. push them. challenge them. teach them life lessons. teach them knowledge. teach them to love one another.
*sigh*
i want to do a lot of things though. and just like in all of the other aspects of my life, i probably won't ever choose a career, not unless i know i'd be good at it.
i'm going to visit steph tomorrow at UNCW. exciting.
that's all for tonight.
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kelly.
ps. Brandon Robles livejournal isn't as cool as mine..
case in point: tonight. i go over to watch the game at my friends' apartment, and i walk in to find 15 guys in there. i quickly scan the room, looking for another female face. none to be found. and none show up later. just me. there. watching the game. eating chips. drinking beer. yelling at the tv. with the guys.
sweet.
but then later on i get the "you look really sexy with your hair in a ponytail" comment which makes me feel somewhat better, haha. it was weird though because i don't ever get those compliments. maybe because i don't ever wear my hair up. i don't like my ears, and i know the general consensus of guys is that they like girls' hair down anyway. but it made me smile.
guys are so transparent. it's almost like a lightswitch being turned on, from when they are just not trying to hit on you, and then suddenly you can read every one of their moves.
that's when i roll my eyes and tell them what they want to hear, and silently escape the house when they aren't looking.
haha.
no that's mean. but sometimes i do that. and the best part is when guys call me out on it. they see me feeding one guy total bullshit, and the one looking on goes "you're lying".. as soon as the other guy leaves.
they called me out on actually drinking beer tonight. i guess it has been awhile. it just isn't my drink of choice anymore, it's not that i won't drink it, i just would prefer something else. if given the choice. i don't bong beers and i don't shotgun them so really they don't ever get me drunk.
however, the captain and i get along quite well. :)
i've decided that i don't try enough. that basically when i know that i will fail at something, or if i know i won't do as well as i would like to, i won't even make an effort. it's either like a 100% or nothing, and how many times are you really going to do 100% of what you set your mind to... it doesn't happen as often as i'd like.
things i want to do very soon:
--have my fortune told/palm read/tarot cards.. whatever
--see animals in the zoo.. i mean i just like animals, whats wrong with that?
--be hypnotized to eat healthy or to lose my fear of speaking in front of people
one time i wrote a list of every single thing i want in a guy. ever. from very broad to extremely random, nit-picky things. the perfect guy.
i left it in my drawer and that was at our old house so i'm pretty sure that got thrown away. which makes me so sad. haha. i would have liked to look back on it and see if any of that has changed.
another thing i've lost that makes me sad? this list of compliments i received in 10th grade. i had this cool teacher, Mrs. Fisher, who made us do this thing where we got all of our desks in a circle, and wrote our name at the top of a paper. then you pass the paper to your right. so you were given someone else's paper, and you had 1 minute to write something nice about them. a compliment. and it went around the whole room of 30 something people or so, and at the end of the class, we had a list of 30 things that our classmates found in us.
that thing truly meant a lot to me. i remember reading some of them and feeling so special because i had never thought that people saw me that way. and i can't remember what anyone said anymore, but i remember holding that paper and hoping that i would never lose it, because i knew it would be important sometime.
and here it is 4 years later and it's gone. maybe one day i'll find it in an old box or something. maybe when i need it the most. who knows.
it's the little things like that that make me want to be a teacher. if they didn't get paid SHIT. but really though.. i want to change kids lives. give them hope. make them feel invincible. believe in them. push them. challenge them. teach them life lessons. teach them knowledge. teach them to love one another.
*sigh*
i want to do a lot of things though. and just like in all of the other aspects of my life, i probably won't ever choose a career, not unless i know i'd be good at it.
i'm going to visit steph tomorrow at UNCW. exciting.
that's all for tonight.
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kelly.
ps. Brandon Robles livejournal isn't as cool as mine..