But it's all i have to believe in...
Oh my .. so i've really broken my resolution to stay updated on this thing... BAD AMANDA!! So much has happened since the last entry.. hmm.. ok.. so i tried working at aeropostale for a while.. but it just wasn't me. The company is shit and my manager was constantly lying to me so i would do what she wanted... (what a dummy all she has to do is ask!!) and the clothes.. well.. i could wear some of it but i felt weird in most of it. So now i'm working at a factory making automotive hoses on third shift w/ sean. It's kinda crazy but sean and i are doing way better then we ever have and i think that makes us both really happy. I think another big part of that has to do w/ us moving... we left gainesville (for those who don't already know) and are really trying to pay off our debts and start saving for things we need for our future. The hard part right now is that w/ sean and i working third shift we don't see anyone.. or barely talk to anyone. We work a lot and it takes a toll on our sleeping habits as well as anything near a social life. I miss my friends.. i miss going out dancing to overplayed indie rock while sipping on sparks and NOT smoking.. (hahahah old habits die hard). i just have to stay focused on the big picture, in the end this is what's for the best and it'll help attain our goals a hell of a lot quicker. I have to say so much is going on in my head right now...poor sean has had to listen for a while and to him it's probably the same shit different day. I just feel so bipolar... i feel happy one minute and the next i just want to scream. I don't know.. i'm just being stupid about everything.. this is my bed and i must lay in it. Let's see if i can work on the resolution.. hahahha