Oct 16, 2003 21:57
LienadH: do u hate me?
NoLongerLovingU: no, i don't hate you. all your decisions were just that, YOUR desicions. It's not my problem what you decided to do.
LienadH: it partly was ur decision too
NoLongerLovingU: no, dan, it wasn't.
LienadH: well u said u didnt want to wait around, because u had a life, and i asked did ask if u wanted to wait
NoLongerLovingU: why would i wait? i don't know when you are going to have time for a girlfriend. It could have been enxt week, it could have been next year. If I asked you to wait for me, I wouldn't expect the answer to be yes. And ou shouldn't have either.
LienadH: to tell u the truth, i dont give up on people, if u had asked me wait i would have, but it was ur decision not to wait
NoLongerLovingU: i told you right from the start of that convo that if we were going out, i wouldn't be looking at other guys or anything, and i would take all the time you could give to me. You said you didn't want that for anyone you were going out with.
LienadH: i would want to treat the person right, and right now i dont have time, and i dont want my first relationship to be like that
LienadH: i dont want to treat u bad, and believe me u would after awhile get annoyed that we didnt spend enough time together
NoLongerLovingU: maybe you don't, but you would have had me when you did have time. I have a life, and I don't want a boyfriend who wants to see me constantly. And I told you that, too. I mean, take for instance KaT and Scott. I love them both, but spending that much time together would make me feel stifled. And I have a job too. Fridays, Saturdays, and Sundays. So it wouldn't be easy for me either. but your desicion was still not to ask me out. and that was YOUR desicion, not mine.
LienadH: it was my decision not to ask u out, but it was your decision not to wait, so all i'm saying is that what ended up being took two peoples decisions, yours and mine
NoLongerLovingU: you know what? i don't even care who's desicion it was. Yeah, I guess I did decide not to wait. But I wasn't going to sit around and wait for you when there could be someone else out there who wants to be with me, whether they had time or not, just knowing that I am theirs. The point is, we're
not together, and that's life.
LienadH: i guess the point is that that's jus life
NoLongerLovingU: yeah, that's the point. you missed out on me, and I guess in a way, I missed out on you too. But that's life. And it's not going to change.
LienadH: yea, in the long run we both probably missed out of something, and it's not going to change, but life will still keep going, and there's no point in looking back
NoLongerLovingU: and so if that's all...?
LienadH: ?
NoLongerLovingU: are you done?
LienadH: yea, i don't think there's anything else to be said
NoLongerLovingU: fine.
LienadH signed off at 6:20:58 PM.
Jesus Christ, can you believe I was hoping he was going to ask me out? And I was prepared to say yes. I really liked him...