Feb 20, 2008 00:42
It blows my mind that somebody with no intentions, whatsoever (good or bad), ends up being an incredibly healing person/s. Does that make them a vessel of personal change AND acceptance? Certain types of behavior don't need validation. You can't view summer in terms of winter. You must constantly enable yourself to move in any direction, and your discretion, yours alone, will be the deciding factor as to whether you find it moral. You can have the perfect thing to say, do, believe in, and you'll never be able to phrase it correctly. I'm bored with giving up, giving in, and I'm getting out of that brisk routine. You have to look yourself in the eye and say "Yes, this is exactly what I'm doing, and that is exactly why I've done it already. That is exactly why I like it, or dislike it, hate it or love it. This is what I am doing about it, to better it, to worsen it. This is how I am coming to terms with it or changing it."
And that is that. And if you disagree, you disagree. And if you approve, you approve. Regret, you regret. Never, should you be so infallible as to forget. Forgetting is the most practical thing to do, but it could/can only be done with sunken eyes and sallow faces.