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my mom's here, i think for good because she's been unpacking most of her shit over at lisa's. it's....fucking weird. i don't even know how i feel about it. like, it's fine sometimes, and then other times i'm like, "holy shit i don't like her." she's just this weird negative person that grinds on my nerves. i don't like driving with her still that's for sure. for some reason all of this makes me really miss sabrina. everything. all the stupid fucking people that are assholes at my work make me want to kill someone. especially the fact that there aren't any cool fucking people around here to hang out with. i was really disappointed last night, i was determined to see that meteor shower. of course it was all foggy in los osos so we had to drive to the top of the world and i could sort of see the sky, but there was still some fog and i didn't see shit. oh well. i'm pretty much staying in bed all day today until i have to get up and go see this roller derby practice. this girl angela i'm kind of friends with, she's pretty cool and went hiking with me the other week and is in a roller derby and is trying to get me into it. so i'm checking it out. might be something good, maybe make friends with older women. it kind of sounds cliquey, like most groups of women tend to be, and that worries me a bit because i just have never been able to do that. a lot of the time when i'm with another female my mind is half there to begin with. maybe that's just people. i think so. either way i need to do something that makes me feel better.
liddy starts school really soon, we just did a target school shopping spree, getting real excited about it. we've had the same drop off schedule with willie for over a year now so i'm going to talk to him about changing it so he can have her on the weekends. that way if i have her most of the school week it'll be easier getting her there and back. i'm dreading taking her to the doctor for her check up, the instant she even hears that word she starts protesting and tearing up.
everyone's out of town this week so there's been a lot of house sitting going on, which normally i love but all i've wanted lately is to just be home. i just feel uncomfortable every where else. it's like i don't know who i am anymore. sometimes, at work or something like that, i'll be talking to someone and hear my own voice and be like, "wow is that me? is that what i sound like?" like ghost fingers on the mind.
liddy starts school really soon, we just did a target school shopping spree, getting real excited about it. we've had the same drop off schedule with willie for over a year now so i'm going to talk to him about changing it so he can have her on the weekends. that way if i have her most of the school week it'll be easier getting her there and back. i'm dreading taking her to the doctor for her check up, the instant she even hears that word she starts protesting and tearing up.
everyone's out of town this week so there's been a lot of house sitting going on, which normally i love but all i've wanted lately is to just be home. i just feel uncomfortable every where else. it's like i don't know who i am anymore. sometimes, at work or something like that, i'll be talking to someone and hear my own voice and be like, "wow is that me? is that what i sound like?" like ghost fingers on the mind.