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No matter how much time passes or events that occur I will always be the girl who wonders and thinks too much.. Or maybe not enough. I'll always be the girl with trust issues, once you're scarred, you're scarred. Period. Doesn't matter how tiny, or large, the thing that caused the mistrust was, it caused it, it's there. Doesn't matter if it's in the past, it will always be there. Always be something that happened to cause unhappiness. And thus I'll always wonder, always worry, always think too much.
Even if I supposedly have no reason to. It cannot be helped. It can be put aside and ignored to the best of my ability. I can sit here and take my thoughts with a grain of salt and just deal with them. They cause me problems, they cause me grief. But it's in me and there's nothing I can do about it.
On a side note.. Spent my Saturday night sitting at the computer doing absolutely nothing. Waiting for something to happen, that didn't. Which is really freaking cool, but should have been expected. But due to what I thought was change, I anticipated actual plans to be held, but the back burner is my home.
Even if I supposedly have no reason to. It cannot be helped. It can be put aside and ignored to the best of my ability. I can sit here and take my thoughts with a grain of salt and just deal with them. They cause me problems, they cause me grief. But it's in me and there's nothing I can do about it.
On a side note.. Spent my Saturday night sitting at the computer doing absolutely nothing. Waiting for something to happen, that didn't. Which is really freaking cool, but should have been expected. But due to what I thought was change, I anticipated actual plans to be held, but the back burner is my home.