freaking out.. for what?

[loveinaelevator]

it was a good night. i'm happy i got such a break. i smiled again, it was coo. i didn't even have it in the back of my mind. but now, in the middle of night-silence, i can see her again. damn, she was so fucking pretty, why am i even kidding myself man? i'll never have him back. sure i'll have him, sure he'll be mine, but in time he'll fall for her

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[borrowed_time]

well i'm going to comment honestly because i care and i don't like to beat around the bush. change is good. you're just not letting yourself change. you're holding onto something and not letting yourself evolve. you can't be happy with this because he betrayed your trust last time, and in the back of your mind you can't let yourself trust him again because you're a very smart girl and somewhere in your mind, you realize that this is a cycle. you proved that you know this by expressing your worries about kelly. you feel like there's no 'old amy' anymore. there is. she can't exist when she can't evolve. you need to think about how this is affecting you emotionally. in order to really think about it, you need to mentally remove yourself from your situation and analyze. ask yourself how happy you have truly been since you and skott have started seeing each other again.

i don't like to make assumptions, but i realize that you were probably thinking "she doesn't understand, she's not standing in my shoes" throughout that whole thing, but keep in mind that in some situations, somebody who's observing from the outside sees things that you might overlook. i'm not saying that it's your fault in any way, because it's not at all. i left you this comment instead of talking to you about it in person or on the phone because i thought that this way you would see it written out and listen, not just hear. i hope that you really take some time and consider what i've said, because i'm only saying this because i'm worried about you and i care.

[loveinaelevator]

awww ellen.. you're my best friend and i care about you too!! and i'm sorry if i don't listen sometimes, or alot of times, but it's hard to. i don't know how to say it without sounding like a bitch.. but I CARE!!