Because I Love You
Title: Because I Love You
Pairing: Onew/Key
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romance
Author's Note: Inspiration for writing this came from the song 'Because I Love You' by September. It's a really good song <3
You say that you love me...
We've been together now for more than a year. Since our debut, we always had some kind of strange connection. You were more than my hyung; always protecting me and caring for me even though you could barely take care of yourself. It was that affection that led me to fall for you, and we became the umma and appa of SHINee. It all seemed so natural. Comfortable. Only in front of reporters and fans did we have to mask our feelings for one another, but we did falter some days and showed moments of love. SME tried to reduce those moments by making us stand the farthest apart, which aggravated me to no end, but your reassuring touches behind the scenes never failed to calm me down. No matter what though, the stress of being an idol did eventually wear us down.
... we both know you don't mean it every day.
Our sunbaes warned us it would happen. They told us that we shouldn't be together because our feelings would get in the way of our work. We shared doubtful glances, not believing this would ever happen between us. We loved each other, gave everything we had to each other, we'd never let the pressure get to us. But we were naive, and it did, slowly. As SME pushed us to our limit and beyond, we became irritable. It wasn't just us, it was the whole group. Performances, broadcasts, and variety shows consumed our time, followed by strenuous and exhausting practices at the company that lasted until the early hours of the morning. By the time we all got home, we were grumpy and tired. It happened on a day when we didn't have any sleep at all and went to an early morning schedule. I saw how tired you were when we got home and walked up to you on the couch, wanting to cuddle. I softly kissed you on the cheek and laid my head on your chest, murmuring, "I love you." Your eyes were shut and you weren't responding to me at all, but eventually you seemed to slightly register my prescence and mumble, "Yeah... love you, too."
But somehow you got me...
We started to become distant. We barely had time to breathe, let alone spend some quality time together. Before this, we used to sneak off sometimes in the night to go to Han River, Namsan Tower, the park... even just wander the streets with our fingers tighty interlocked and our shoulders bumping together. Now, if we ever had a free break, we'd pass out wherever we were without a second thought. I did miss our little excursions, and I missed you hugely. I know you probably felt the same way, but we were too caught up in everything with our career that we neglected each other. I made a mistake one day when I began talking closely with my '91 friends on a variety show. Normally it wouldn't be a big deal, but later on when we finally got into the dorm, you threw me into our bedroom and yelled, "What the hell are you doing being so lovey-dovey with those guys? Have you forgotten that we're... we're..." You stumbled over your choice of words and I took it as an opportunity to speak. "We're what?! We barely even talk to each other anymore! Why should you care?" I immediately regretted it, because I didn't like them like that anyways, and I didn't mean anything I said. But I was too angry and tired to make sense, and stomped out of the bedroom, slamming the bathroom door shut. Immediately you pounded on the door, demanding that I open it. When you finally gave up, I heard you loudly say, "What the fuck, Kibum! Get over yourself." Your words bit into me and I slumped next to the bathtub, curling my legs to my chest and cradling my head in my knees, letting the sobs rack my body. That was our first major fight and I couldn't help but start to think that our sunbaes had been right and that this was a horrible mistake.
... so I'll put up with anything you say.
The next morning was incredibly awkward. It stayed that way through the whole day, the whole week, until I started to go crazy thinking that this was it. That it was really the end of us. It was a Sunday night when we were home at a semi-decent hour. I had never felt so empty in my life, walking aimlessly into our bedroom and climbing into my bed, covering myself up and letting the tears fall from my eyes. It's all I could do lately; cry. I'd been there for awhile when I felt my bed sink and someone crawling under the covers, arms wrapping around me tightly. "Kibummie..." you murmured in my ear, sending shivers down my spine. I wasn't mad at you, not really. We both knew that neither of us meant what we said. Rolling over slowly, I curled into your body and felt you tighten your hold on me. "I'm sorry," I whispered, and you said the same to me. Looking up into your gentle eyes, I continued, "Let's not be like that again. Ever." A loving smile graced your lips, a smile I hadn't seen in a long time. A little smile of my own matched yours and we both leaned forward to share a soft kiss before I succumbed to your warmth and we fell asleep.
Because I love you.
We made it our goal after that to take time to show each other we still cared. Schedules were still packed and we still had no time to do anything, definitely not enough to go on any secret rendezvous together, but we still found a way to pick each other up and bring back those little smiles and gentle caresses. You sent me a text one day when I was at home and you were recording Late Night Variety. I was nothing short of elated when I opened my cellphone to see your message, "I'd rather be with you whenever then without you all the time. I miss you, baby! Can't wait to be home. ♥" Another thing we discovered was that we slept much better when we were together, so that became our nightly ritual. Not to mention that it gave us time to cuddle and kiss, too, which was a huge bonus. Things were finally going well again. And although we still didn't get to spend as much time together as we'd like, the love in us was back. And that made all the stress of work bearable.
When we finally got a day off, we immediately snuck out of the dorm and bundled up in scarfs and a hat, not only for disguise but because it was really cold. Walking down the dark streets, our hands linked, we indulged in eating bulgogi and other tasty foods from the street vendors, chuckling to each other about ignoring SM's diet restrictions. Then we took a walk next to Han River before we went to Namsan Tower. We'd already attached our lock there a long time ago, not even caring to be subtle and writing our full names 'Lee Jinki ♥ Kim Kibum Forever" on the lock. Dawn was almost breaking as the sun began to rise, no one else crazy enough to be up at the tower. Standing against the rail and watching the sunset, we looked out at the beautiful colours in the sky and smiled at each other. I leaned against you and your arms were around me protectively, your nose nuzzling into my hair. I turned around and wrapped my arms around your neck, cuddling into you. You kissed me under the ear and began kissing your way to my lips, where we met gently. Our kiss deepend as you consumed me, with me shivering into your touch. When we finally broke apart, our faces tinged with blush, you brushed some hair out of my eyes and said, "I love you, Kibum. Always." Then, you pulled out a ring from your pocket, and I noticed the same one on your own finger. My smile grew wider as you slid it onto my finger and I molded myself into you as we met in another kiss, my words a whisper in the crisp morning wind,
"I love you too, Lee Jinki. Forever."
Pairing: Onew/Key
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romance
Author's Note: Inspiration for writing this came from the song 'Because I Love You' by September. It's a really good song <3
You say that you love me...
We've been together now for more than a year. Since our debut, we always had some kind of strange connection. You were more than my hyung; always protecting me and caring for me even though you could barely take care of yourself. It was that affection that led me to fall for you, and we became the umma and appa of SHINee. It all seemed so natural. Comfortable. Only in front of reporters and fans did we have to mask our feelings for one another, but we did falter some days and showed moments of love. SME tried to reduce those moments by making us stand the farthest apart, which aggravated me to no end, but your reassuring touches behind the scenes never failed to calm me down. No matter what though, the stress of being an idol did eventually wear us down.
... we both know you don't mean it every day.
Our sunbaes warned us it would happen. They told us that we shouldn't be together because our feelings would get in the way of our work. We shared doubtful glances, not believing this would ever happen between us. We loved each other, gave everything we had to each other, we'd never let the pressure get to us. But we were naive, and it did, slowly. As SME pushed us to our limit and beyond, we became irritable. It wasn't just us, it was the whole group. Performances, broadcasts, and variety shows consumed our time, followed by strenuous and exhausting practices at the company that lasted until the early hours of the morning. By the time we all got home, we were grumpy and tired. It happened on a day when we didn't have any sleep at all and went to an early morning schedule. I saw how tired you were when we got home and walked up to you on the couch, wanting to cuddle. I softly kissed you on the cheek and laid my head on your chest, murmuring, "I love you." Your eyes were shut and you weren't responding to me at all, but eventually you seemed to slightly register my prescence and mumble, "Yeah... love you, too."
But somehow you got me...
We started to become distant. We barely had time to breathe, let alone spend some quality time together. Before this, we used to sneak off sometimes in the night to go to Han River, Namsan Tower, the park... even just wander the streets with our fingers tighty interlocked and our shoulders bumping together. Now, if we ever had a free break, we'd pass out wherever we were without a second thought. I did miss our little excursions, and I missed you hugely. I know you probably felt the same way, but we were too caught up in everything with our career that we neglected each other. I made a mistake one day when I began talking closely with my '91 friends on a variety show. Normally it wouldn't be a big deal, but later on when we finally got into the dorm, you threw me into our bedroom and yelled, "What the hell are you doing being so lovey-dovey with those guys? Have you forgotten that we're... we're..." You stumbled over your choice of words and I took it as an opportunity to speak. "We're what?! We barely even talk to each other anymore! Why should you care?" I immediately regretted it, because I didn't like them like that anyways, and I didn't mean anything I said. But I was too angry and tired to make sense, and stomped out of the bedroom, slamming the bathroom door shut. Immediately you pounded on the door, demanding that I open it. When you finally gave up, I heard you loudly say, "What the fuck, Kibum! Get over yourself." Your words bit into me and I slumped next to the bathtub, curling my legs to my chest and cradling my head in my knees, letting the sobs rack my body. That was our first major fight and I couldn't help but start to think that our sunbaes had been right and that this was a horrible mistake.
... so I'll put up with anything you say.
The next morning was incredibly awkward. It stayed that way through the whole day, the whole week, until I started to go crazy thinking that this was it. That it was really the end of us. It was a Sunday night when we were home at a semi-decent hour. I had never felt so empty in my life, walking aimlessly into our bedroom and climbing into my bed, covering myself up and letting the tears fall from my eyes. It's all I could do lately; cry. I'd been there for awhile when I felt my bed sink and someone crawling under the covers, arms wrapping around me tightly. "Kibummie..." you murmured in my ear, sending shivers down my spine. I wasn't mad at you, not really. We both knew that neither of us meant what we said. Rolling over slowly, I curled into your body and felt you tighten your hold on me. "I'm sorry," I whispered, and you said the same to me. Looking up into your gentle eyes, I continued, "Let's not be like that again. Ever." A loving smile graced your lips, a smile I hadn't seen in a long time. A little smile of my own matched yours and we both leaned forward to share a soft kiss before I succumbed to your warmth and we fell asleep.
Because I love you.
We made it our goal after that to take time to show each other we still cared. Schedules were still packed and we still had no time to do anything, definitely not enough to go on any secret rendezvous together, but we still found a way to pick each other up and bring back those little smiles and gentle caresses. You sent me a text one day when I was at home and you were recording Late Night Variety. I was nothing short of elated when I opened my cellphone to see your message, "I'd rather be with you whenever then without you all the time. I miss you, baby! Can't wait to be home. ♥" Another thing we discovered was that we slept much better when we were together, so that became our nightly ritual. Not to mention that it gave us time to cuddle and kiss, too, which was a huge bonus. Things were finally going well again. And although we still didn't get to spend as much time together as we'd like, the love in us was back. And that made all the stress of work bearable.
When we finally got a day off, we immediately snuck out of the dorm and bundled up in scarfs and a hat, not only for disguise but because it was really cold. Walking down the dark streets, our hands linked, we indulged in eating bulgogi and other tasty foods from the street vendors, chuckling to each other about ignoring SM's diet restrictions. Then we took a walk next to Han River before we went to Namsan Tower. We'd already attached our lock there a long time ago, not even caring to be subtle and writing our full names 'Lee Jinki ♥ Kim Kibum Forever" on the lock. Dawn was almost breaking as the sun began to rise, no one else crazy enough to be up at the tower. Standing against the rail and watching the sunset, we looked out at the beautiful colours in the sky and smiled at each other. I leaned against you and your arms were around me protectively, your nose nuzzling into my hair. I turned around and wrapped my arms around your neck, cuddling into you. You kissed me under the ear and began kissing your way to my lips, where we met gently. Our kiss deepend as you consumed me, with me shivering into your touch. When we finally broke apart, our faces tinged with blush, you brushed some hair out of my eyes and said, "I love you, Kibum. Always." Then, you pulled out a ring from your pocket, and I noticed the same one on your own finger. My smile grew wider as you slid it onto my finger and I molded myself into you as we met in another kiss, my words a whisper in the crisp morning wind,
"I love you too, Lee Jinki. Forever."